i feel like monkey crap
i haven't felt like this in years. this is in other words can be described as.... HASSLEFECK. i wanna vommit. this has been one helluva morning. i wanna cry but as much as i want to there aint no fuck*n tears coming out. maybe sobrang manhid nako. cuz maybe now i am used to cover up my feelings for how hard it is to have a long distnce relationship. damn.
i had the biggest fight with my mom today and to tell you the truth, it is a major one because this is the biggest fight i had with her my whole life .we used to get along pretty well. then this morning it's like all hell broke lose. we were shouting at each other like crazy 3 year-olds, and if i think about it, its so fuck*n shallow. we weren't really communicating pretty well. well, that's what i think. i know it's a waste of time to dwell on it. but i know this will strengthen our relationship somehow and ive been really thinking about moving out of the house, but the thing is i cant entertain these kind of thoughts cuz wadafuk am i thinking? i still cant pay bills im still freakin student and i don't have a stable job yet! im so stressed out. she is also stressed out and we just somehow collided like two asteroids coliding in space. that's what american life is all about.
my day was really hard yesterday. i had to get my butt up to drive my dad to work at 5:30 am, 6:30-7:30get myself ready for school,then catch the samtrans-bus, then i went to my classes till 12, then trabaho na at 1:30-10pm, then naktulog ako like 12am then hintaid ko kanina ulit si dad ng masmaaga today.... tapos nagwala lang kami ni mom kc sabay lang kami nagexplode. i dunno basta it so hard to explain how it started e basta nadevelop sa roles namin sa bahay at yung ginagawa namin everyday kung gano kami ka-busy at san napupunta yung priorities ewan ko!.. punyeta i think i should drop this cuz i know it ain't worth my time. so i guess i should end this now kc sobrang babaw talga. sana maayos na ito.
i had the biggest fight with my mom today and to tell you the truth, it is a major one because this is the biggest fight i had with her my whole life .we used to get along pretty well. then this morning it's like all hell broke lose. we were shouting at each other like crazy 3 year-olds, and if i think about it, its so fuck*n shallow. we weren't really communicating pretty well. well, that's what i think. i know it's a waste of time to dwell on it. but i know this will strengthen our relationship somehow and ive been really thinking about moving out of the house, but the thing is i cant entertain these kind of thoughts cuz wadafuk am i thinking? i still cant pay bills im still freakin student and i don't have a stable job yet! im so stressed out. she is also stressed out and we just somehow collided like two asteroids coliding in space. that's what american life is all about.
my day was really hard yesterday. i had to get my butt up to drive my dad to work at 5:30 am, 6:30-7:30get myself ready for school,then catch the samtrans-bus, then i went to my classes till 12, then trabaho na at 1:30-10pm, then naktulog ako like 12am then hintaid ko kanina ulit si dad ng masmaaga today.... tapos nagwala lang kami ni mom kc sabay lang kami nagexplode. i dunno basta it so hard to explain how it started e basta nadevelop sa roles namin sa bahay at yung ginagawa namin everyday kung gano kami ka-busy at san napupunta yung priorities ewan ko!.. punyeta i think i should drop this cuz i know it ain't worth my time. so i guess i should end this now kc sobrang babaw talga. sana maayos na ito.
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