wala lang.. :)

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Quote for the week:

(from my dad at 5:00am in the morning, June 10,2004 i have to drive him to work you know? 5 days a week then pick him up at 10pm when has work in the evening)

sabi ba naman niya...

Bart, layuan mo yung babae na yan nachichismis kayo sa prospect (company name where i work) tinatanong sa akin ng mga tao kung magpapakasal kayo. Hwag ka masyadong makipagclose jan baka mapikot ka.

nde ako makasagot dahil... nakatulog ako past 3 am and sobra sobra sa bangag ako... kaya i ignored him nalang pagkauwi ko natawa nalang ako hahahha!!! daddy ko talga love na love ako mwahahaha kya ang hirap hirap pag ikaw lang ang lalake sobra sobra paranoid ng parents ko pagdating sa mga babae....dad ko kasi nagpasok sakin sa prospect e... so co-worker ko siya.. hayun... praning talga yun.. buti nalang birthday mo kahapon dad hahaha... love you dad!! happy birthday nalang sayo...

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Hay naku bakit ganun? I still can't be myself when I am with her. Siguro I need more time to know her at get used to the feeling inside... Dang, I can't even drive properly while she is beside me.. ang hirap nagmukhang careful driver tuloy ako kasi sinusunod ko yung speed limit at street signs hahahah ( i became boring!)... pagkababa ko nga sa knya.. sinalpak ko yung tupac cd ko na binigay ni bestfriend bayi tapos parang siraulo na naman ako magdrive... sabay hirit habang nagdradrive "i came from the streets of manila bitches!!!" haha.. hayun kahit papaano "poised" pa rin ako kumbaga ika nga ni mama ondeng "qt mode". Pero paunti unti na nakikilala ko siya im getting used to the feeling na and i am slowly acting to be the makulit me.. i asked her about relationships.. ang sabi niya mahihirapan siya kaya its gonna take time... kasi galing lang siya sa isang 3 year relationship may ka-live-in siya na italianong kamukha daw ni nick lachey sabi ng mga co-workers namin kaso sama naman daw ng ugali... kaya ngayon siya nalang magisa sa apt niya at may sarili siyang car... hirit ba naman ng uncle dd (bunso sa family ng dad ko) "convenience".. hahah wala lang... anyway, 4 months palang sila naghiwalay.. jerk kasi e... nambabae... hay naku same old same old... bakit ganun no? oh well... kung minsan i pity women for being disrespected and being cheated almost all the time... kya when i was growing up i knew i wanted to be different... having 3 sisters gave me enough reasons to respect a woman and loving her for what she is.. i find it hard to absorb that having a spare is a man thing... oh well...

The woman I just met is a bad ass that's how she decribes herself... age 16 na juvi daw siya... pinagupit daw siya ng grass sa bundok... kasi daw she stole a credit card when she worked at sears nangtritrip lang daw... at the age of 17 she was kicked out of the house cuz of his 5 year older boyfriend.. she drinks hennesy.. she smokes one pack a day... i think she has a gambling problem... her mom had to give her up to her lola cuz she was too young to take care of a baby... therefore she became a rebel because she blamed her mom for not getting her and is still blaming her til now... but nakabond ko yung lola niya sabi niya siya daw ang may kasalanan kasi nung kinukuha daw nung mom niya si renee ayaw bigay nung lola niya kasi wala daw siyang baby.. ano pa kasi... basta napaka extreme yung mga experiences sa buhay niya... kaso kung minsan tamad lang nga... ang egotistic grabe.. exag

siguro by now tinatanong niyo kung bakit ko siya nagustuhan? kung minsan ako rin nakatanga... nakahiga sa kama at nagtataka bakit ganun? pero kung minsan may mga bagay na nde mo na maexplain... nangyayari nalang... what im doin is im just "riding with the wave"... im just so happy that this feeling came to me and something inside my mind sparked.. and this happened..

im having hard time explaining it.. pero lahat ng inlove ngayon.. can relate i bet...

anyway, she is still playing with the fact that I like her... she referred to me as a very very good friend... i dunno what that means and i dunno when she will come around... i have to be honest kung minsan i want to just give up and say to her na i don't feel that she even likes me... but then again.... nde pa talga siguro siya ready... i bet it will take a lot of time... ang dami kong karibal man... ang dami kung alam niyo lang... hay naku kung minsan nga nai-iinsecure ako sobra.. kasi sobrang gwapo at sobrang laki ng katawan ng mga pumuporma sa knya... i just hope things will fall into place... like i want it to be... well i guess that would be asking too much dba?.. oh well, all i can say is like before... i won't force nman someone who to like me.. ill just give it all ive got.. and if she chooses someone else... it won't really affect me that much... all i know that if you overcome the fear of failure, there is nothing else to fear…im just happy that she made me write again...

hayun.. i will end it na... cge ingat lang lagi peepz!! :)

Other things:

Dang! the lakers lost yesterday badtrip pare...
I'm going to marine world nga pala bukas summer classes start tues kaya labas naman ako.. hayy... add sa stress yung school next week... feeling ko it's gonna be... one helluva week... it's gonna be stress week again :)

oh well.. that's it for me!
peace!