9/20/2005

Waking up, Just lying in bed







Waking up, just lying in bed,
I see the sun shining brightly from my window
As I think about you…
again and again and again
.
It’s so hard to explain this feeling,
why each night before I go to sleep
I look forward on waking up the next day
because I know, I will be with you again.
.
I still feel like I am dreaming
when I think about us being this way.
.
Pinch me now.
.
Am I only dreaming?
cuz if i am truly just dreaming…
.
my only wish is
.
never to wake up again.
.
.
Waking up, just lying in my bed,
I see the wind gently caressing the leaves outside my window.
Just like how you felt inside the circle of my arms
.
just last night. you and me.
.
I never wanted to let go.
I never wanted the night to end.
I never wanted to fall for someone so fast,
.
but whenever you are near me
I keep asking myself…
how do you do it?
How can you make it so easy for me to love you?
.
.
Waking up, just lying in my bed,
I see trees swaying peacefully outside my window,
.
Like how you can make my heart sway
whenever I see you smile at me.
And I am left just standing there,
breathless…
.

As you dash your fingers on my face,
hold my hand,
and kiss me on the cheek:
.
reminding me to breathe again.
.
.
Waking up, just lying here in bed,
I see the sky lying on top of the clouds outside my window.
.
Much like my mind
when I smell the sweet fragrance of your skin
from my fingers.
.
Making me think about
all the good things I did
as to what I have done
.
for heaven to reward me
with one of its most precious angels
which makes me pray and thank God at night
.
for you,
.
the one who makes me feel
like heaven exists here on earth.
.
.
Waking up, just lying here in bed,
I am not afraid of what tomorrow will bring
because I know I will still be with you
and only you…
.
And when I grow older,
I am looking forward to
.
wake up, lie in bed
.
beside you,
.
hold you close,
and once again,
.
still find forever
.
by looking into your angel eyes
again and again and again…
.
after so many years.

9/06/2005

note to self:



My New Motto: Live young, DIe Young!

1)I wanna be better in basketball..
2)I wanna make money until my parents doesn't need to work anymore.
3)I need money before mid-december.. cuz im going back to p.i.
4)I want a real relationship that will last at least a year.. (*i never had a gf that lasted for a year) i pity myself for this shet..
5)I want to write more poems.
6)I wanna be in the dean's list this semester.
7)I wanna work out more and get ripped a lil more.. with abs... (I stopped smoking by the way)
8)I wanna work on my golfing skills so that i can beat my lolo when I play with him this december.


truly.. this is what i want.. hope i can accomplish em all...

9/01/2005

"my life is not measured by the breaths that i take, but by the moments that take my breath away..."



I have been sleeping and lost in a dream for a while.. and i am still "a work in progress"... my life has been a continuous struggle.. ive been extremely up there and have been extremely down there... i just wish everything would turn out just fine... dont we all want this in our lives?.. I wish there was this perfect formula where a person in his path would not experience hurt, sadness, grief, failures, rejections, etc.. which makes me question myself.. would I be the same person I have become if not for these experiences?

I know these.. but sometimes dont you just wish that life wouldn't suck.. and there was this perfect happy ending just waiting for each and every person... I sometimes think about what will I feel if I don't accomplish all my goals in life.. my desires.. my wishes.. what will happen then.. if i die before the universe would reveal my personal legend for me..

I just hope that one day.. I would be able to look back at my life, just smiling, contended... that my I lived my life to the fullest..

as of now...

I am still in the edge of my sanity.. clawing my way up to my own mountain.. struggling and hoping to find a way to reach the top:

my goals, my wishes and my desires.