san diego trip... :)

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Day 1: drive to san diego.
            hit downtown.
            hit the pacific beach.
            head back to the hotel.
            lay in the sun beside the pool and try to get darker.
            sleep.
            change clothes.
            meet up with my uncle.
            eat steak dinner. (yeah!)
            sleep.

-->with my lolo and lola and my sis nix

-->with mom and three sisters (nix, nadine, bea)

-->with them hagen hehehe...

Day 2: went to the comic convention. (it was tight)
            went to san ysidro (san diego factory outlets)
            drop parents and grandparents to the reception.
            hit coronado beach! (the best beach in san diego!)
            eat pizza.
            drive home. (hehe) 


-->at the comic convention.. sabi ko sa inyo comics e heheh... the only pic that made me smile wehehehe...

-->at the gorgeous coronado beach! pinaliit ko yung pic kc camera shy ako pagnakahubad ang aking t-shirt heheh...

Note: I was supposed to be in LA; however, dad can't drive that much anymore... and i forgot my friggn plane ticket!!! hahah... stupid.. hayun its ayt... :)... sabi nga ni nix, "it wasn't meant to be"... i plan to go there before aug 15... basta before iskul starts hagen! haaaayyy...

hayun... yun lang ;p 
           

confessions (feeling usher topic daw! nyay!) ;p

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I am now sitting here in my sisters' room using our pc. (I definitely need my own laptop!) Finally I have arrived home ;p I drove for 6 hours 11:30pm-5:30am. My dad just drove from san diego to l.a. then at the later part of the trip... Hayun I definitely needed that SAn DIEGO trip! It was one of those breaks na I am very thankful to have come on cuz there were stuffs that bothered my mind. But it was good because, na derecho ko na ang mga buhol buhol na tali na bumubulabog ng utak ko. 

Anyhoo, bago ang lahat gusto ko lang ipagmayabang (paumanhin niyo na ako ha… hehhee) na i have a new track record.... (drum roll) ta-da 110mph (180 kph) sa interstate 5. Maraming risks hehhe dahil 70mph lang ang pwede at ginawa ko yun habang nagiisnore ang kabado kong tatay ko na nasa passenger side wehehehe... kasi everytime na bigla siyang magigising mabibigla siya kasi over the speed limit daw ako! nyay! gayahin ko daw siya... (double) nyay! naknamputcha e di nakatulog ako nun habang nagdradrive... wahahaha.. wala lang...

balik tayo sa topic...  hayun nga so a close friend of mine (which i will not tell his/her name for private reasons) -walang  pakelemanan!- told me na, there must be a reason kung bakit naging ganun yung nangyari kay renee... there always is daw... yun yung pinagisipan ko the whole trip at kahapon lang ako nalinawagan habang nagjojogging ako sa coronado beach while the cool waves gently touch my feet and as the magnificent sun glares up at my face. (drama ba?) 0 yun nga para bang finally there was a stroke of clarity dawning from my crazy, confused mind.

I have to be honest, I haven't been really honest (hahah tamad na ako magisip ng word! wlang pkelamanan!) in this blog... cuz there are some certain things that might affect people cuz most of my very very close friends read this.. kaya i don't want them to ruin my relationship and their relationship with others cuz of reading this blog! (basta gets niyo ba?) anyway, to cut it short, I have secrets... like everybody else and I plan to keep that way cuz I am a private person (ironic noo? bakit kaya may blog ako!) anyhoo, yun nga... basta eto na lang basahin niyo..

I wasn't played... I just said that because i was mad... usually kasi when bad things happen I automatically blame myself and my insecurities speak out loudly. Because growing up, my self-esteem wasn't really that intact (you can ask mom why? nde love ko yun kahit ganun) hahaha....  It was sort of a blessing na I ended dating renee... cuz if it got more serious than that then it would have been really bad... really bad... she will only get hurt... cuz she doesn't know the real reason why I decided to say those things to her... and I can't say the reason why cuz... it's kinda a touchy topic... delikado... hayun... basta it was about the roots of my feelings for her kaya... I confess that while she was trying to play me, I was playing her from the start... sorry I am soo bad.. the thing is when you have bad habits.. it's so natural na what you are doing kaya you forget the main reason of why you are doing it cuz... basta ganun ako... eto ang naisip ko e.. sinusulat ko lang po.. anyway, the weird thing about it is... being kupal has been very natural for me.. and I have no clue why... I have to confess din na when I was back in P.I. i was a good boy... santo pa nga e... martyr in short... it took me 21 years to realize what I am... and I don't plan on changing anything ... hayun just some thoughts that entered my mind... hehe... 

hayun, thank God for this trip... I feel a big thorn has been taken out of my brain.

( My next post will be about the trip, as of now, I need to take a bath (kakain ako sa labas with bayi’s fam)  ;p ye-hey!  

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I'm off to the south tonight! Ay salamat! Kanyaman.... I feel better today... but I have a headache...

Anyway, there's this new reality show in MTV which i find very very funny mwahahha!!!! reality show ni andy dick... "the assitant" you have to watch this... basta ang kulit kulit!!!

 

just wanted to say take care guys! peace.... anyway check out myspace... kaya nde ko na masyadong ina-update itong blog ko kc inaayos ko yun e... astig hehehhe... add me bart_tanjuakio@hotmail.com

BART's 4 stages of moving on.

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   1) denial

   2) anger

^3) acceptance

   4) get over

(usually it has more but i cut it down hehe!!!)

I haven't been posting lately because I am too down to write about me. So far I am at stage 3 of getting over. It feels like forever but right now I am just glad it's over.

I am going to rest. That's why I am headed to San Diego then L.A. this thursday night. Finally I get some rest from everything. Most probably hit the beach, drink alcohol, and relax!

Sometimes you make a wrong turn and commit stupid mistakes,

however what matters more is how you pick yourself up and get back on the road again.

It is hard to explain but I have to give my best friend and my friends from work credit. The grabbed me and put me back on earth. Bayi frankly told me, "My homeboy's getting played". I kept on denying it but I knew it was only time will tell me to realize he was right.

All I can say is I gave her all. She gave me nothing.

a wrong turn and a stupid mistake.

I need to put my mind off things. I can't wait til thurs night.        

Lesson for me: When it comes to love, it doesn't hurt to use your head.

 

Why do you have to be a bitch and make it more complicated as it is?

All you had to do is say to my face that I am not good enough for you.

/me nods my head

"It's nothing personal, it's just business" -from the movie, "The Godfather"

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I just watched two of the greatest films ever made.

Godfather 1 & 2

It's basically a guy movie. The main ingredients are POWER, MONEY, and Vendetta. Marlon Brando's (R.I.P.) performance was simply spectacular! It makes me want to watch the movie again. I like the cinematography and the aestethic video shots of this movie. Another added factor would be it was in New York and Italy around 1950's I think. Galing rin ni Al Pacino (Idol!).





Courtesy of Bayi's House of DVD. hehehe... silver member na ako. thanks man!

I also watched TUPAC resurrection (which i recommend you watching!)

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5:45pm
"Tumahimik ka na nga, Masusuntok na kita jan e!"
- my angry pikon dad

While debating with me on what i want to wear today.
Nangengelam pa kc e! I was wearing a DUKE jersey, maong shorts, and black sandals. hay naku pikon naman pakelam mo dad.. handa ako masapak nun seryoso lang kaso nde ako lalaban sa tatay ko ano ako gago... kaya kong sagutin yun pero pagbabawian ko ng suntok nde cguro... oo tarantado na ako ngayon dad. sasagutin at sasagutin kita at wala akong pakelam kc this is the only time in my life i feel i am "me".

Before, I always followed you and abided all you want me to do even if i had to sacrifice "me" a lot... I will always fight for me and you can't change me anymore... I have found confidence and sorry nalang if sometimes what I say would disrespect you... i guess ganun lang talga if i feel violated by what you say and what you plan for me... i will continue living my life..

I am not afraid of you. Goodnight!

;p

update

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hoy pakshet! haaay salamat may oras akong magsulat dto sa blog ko!!! hayun.. update hmmm...

1) wala pa naman akong girlfriend (hehehe) ;)
2) we got a new house in millbrae and tapos na ang paglilipat namin:)
3) i just watched spiderman2 last night
4) may pinahiram sa aking si bayi..rap attack... astig bestfriend thanks man! puro pinoy rap artists... ang galing galing... lalo na yung tungkol sa love... marikina clan, kawago, crazy as pinoy, and urban flows... are some of my favorite artists.. oh wait... kruzzada rin pala galing ah... pinapakinggan ko nga sila ulit e hehhe..
4) i watched din pala TUPAC resurrection galing!!! haaaay naku... i think i will be a tupac fan till i die... ibahin mo siya
5) i have been so busy lately hay but after summer... it will mellow down na.. this is my busiest summer ever! i plan to quit my first job... lessen my hours on my second and focus on my school in august starts :)
6)ano pa kc hmmmm... i have been going to the driving range lately... practicing my swing with my lolo...
7) basketball... mejo one week na nde nakakapag shooting... sana bukas or sa sunday...
8) okay naman ako... etong week na ito relax week ko kasi pahinga... as compared to last week... haaay grabe yun!
9) ay last fri we drank hennesy with the 2 bayi's (his lil brother and him)... grabe... sarap man!!! nagiba talga ako dto... dati tequilla lang ako sa pinas e hehehe...
10) lastly, ano pa kc... i have my own room na finally kaso anjan si lolo and lola so demoted ako hahhaha... sa living room na naman..

hayun... sorry i have to catch up with you guys... hehe... been super busy grabe... i feel like ang laki ng tinanda ko dto hehe... nicotine, alcohol and caffeine lang ang bumubuhay sa akin whoa... it keeps me sane... seryoso... oh well, that's life for me... im out... ingat lang lagi peeps...

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PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination .
You dont want a relationship without passion,
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
moment you meet him/her is one of the most
important. There has to be something between
you , you cannot explain. From the first moment
on everything must fix. But when this passion
disappears you disappear to. For you it is
better to leave than to see your love
restrained.

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