damn! i feel like my head is about to pop out

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I just took JEPET (Junior English Proficiency Essay Test)... i went to one of the free JEPET workshops here at sf state last thursday and it helped a lot (i recommend you to take it).. for all those dont know what this test is... (from sfsu.edu)

JEPET is an essay examination. Students are given one and a half hours in which to construct a well-organized and developed expository essay on a given topic of general interest. Papers are evaluated for organization and content, as well as mechanics and sentence structure.


In other words, it is a hands-on essay by using a paper and a pen with an hour and a half time limit (talk about time pressure). In which you write about a topic that will be given to you on that same day (wow can't they make it easier?). It is hard because I am not used to writing essays without the help of Microsoft Word and I feel more comfortable with a keyboard instead of writing with a pen and look at my not so attractive hand writing. This test is mandatory and you can't graduate if you don't pass this.. there is an alternative though and that is you have to take an english class for a semester if you don't pass. I also don't have any plans of taking the class because it is very time consuming and I just need to get it out of the way, so I can graduate soon... pray for me nalang.. I wish I pass that test.. whew! I got dizzy after taking that test. It was exhausting.. the pressure, the challenge...

bwahahaha
I LOVE IT!!!

Last night though I had a drinking session with Da Boys.. ang kulet... heheh.. I slept early though, I just needed to put alcohol in my body and relax before the this test.. I enjoyed singing on the phone while talking to her nga pala hahaha.. kakahiya naman.. sabi nga nung mga barkada ko.. kakaiba daw ako nanghaharana daw ako sa phone.. ang baduy ko raw hahaha... one of my friends brought his guitar and we were singing old opm songs.. ang astig wala lang.. gustong gusto ko yun... singing pareko-eraserheads, 214-rivermaya, alamid-your love, perfect-wag nalang kaya-truefaith... etc.. ang astig.... it makes me remember p.i. wala lang... a lil homesick tuloy ako... :P

Anyhoo, I have to go home narin... i need to bring my sis to school... later guys.. payce!

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SHout Outs:

PATTY: If pwede lang noh.. hehehe.. eh kung libre mo akong plane ticket baket hendi? hehehhe.. loko lang.. nah.. my family has plans in going back there for a vacation.. pero nde pa concrete e.. kaya nde ko muna sasabihin baka masulot.. :P miss you narin... hay nako...

BING: sino itong girl? secret... hehehe.. pero nde taga pinas kaya wag ka magalala... :P..

RUSS: well.. i guess we are kinda similar.. pero things are different... way different.. i can't reveal the details baka kasi mahiya yung girl.. kaya all i can say is.. i am prone to DRAMA.. hahaha.. kahit na iniiwasan ko it walks with me without me knowing it... weird noh...

MYCH: i don't think my relationship with this girl has a future. it is far way too complicated to think about having a serious relationship with her today..so can you just imagine what will happen tomorrow? basta the catch is maybe too much but I do know she is worth it.. but there are just some "certain reasons" that just would prevent us to be together.. and it is simply ironic! kakainis nga kung minsan e.. pero masaya naman kami ngayon.. kaya cguro hanggang dto muna...

LORNADAHL: ganda man.. i wanna go there!!! dali tara na!!! joke.. btw, i liked yung mga msgs natin sa friendster ah.. very deep at meaningful.. wow.. galeng hehehe...

ANONYMOUS: yeah.. it's good to know someone feels the same way.. kaya lang.. no offense ah.. yung last line mo cracked me up.. hahhahahaha.. tangina laugh trip!!!! napaka senti na e.. hahaha... ingat lang

I just need to get some things off my chest...

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if you think that the last girl i was "involved" with was confusing.. well this one is worse (i always seem to thrive in weirdest situations ever!) bwahahahaha... i dunno am i prone in not having a normal relationship?.. or is it just me?.. am i just flirting around.. trying to make most of my single life while it still lasts... when will the right girl in the right situation finally arrive?

damn... but despite the "catch", the circumstances, the situtation or whatever i or you call it..

we seem to get along pretty well.. understanding each other like crazy.. the relationship we have is indescribable...it's highly complicated now but if we proceed to the next level i don't know how crazier it can still get... i think i can talk and hang out with this girl all day.. all night.. even right at this moment.. even when i talk to her til 3 in the morning it seems that i can't get enough of her... i wanna be with her - if that is, she was here in sf =( -.. the feeling is inevitable.. that's why i am kinda scared.. if it takes over me then i can't control it anymore.. i am overly pessimistic about falling in love because I have been through hell and i feel that I am somehow still there..

but this girl pulls both my hands and brings me up to bliss... saving me from my damned, cursed life.


i told myself not to get involved with girls who are far from me
and also, i promised myself that I won't fall for anyone...

but it gets harder and harder every single day....

it's gonna hit me soon i can feel it in the air..
like a speeding bus, while i walk with my eyes closed, in the middle of a busy freeway...



so,
am i prone in not having a normal relationship?.. or is it just me?.. am i just flirting around.. trying to make most of my single life while it still lasts... when will the right girl in the right situation finally arrive?

I guess you would agree with me when i say there's no normal relationship in this world.. and that is there is no perfect girl for me.. and that there is no right situation..

just feelings... decisions.... real people.... imperfections and me, myself and I.

I just have to embrace and be thankful
of what I am feeling now, be happy that it grew, we "kinda" have each other..
and what a wonderful blessing she has become to me...

I just need to get some things off my chest..

payce!

P.S. -

Thinkin' of you,
Makes me feel,
Like I am the only one for you,

Girl I want to be with you,
No one else,
Only you,
Why can't we just,
Make it happen,
Baby, I need you in my life...

Every time I'm with you,
Never want it to come to an end (thought I told you that we won't stop),
You always make me so happy,
You'll always have a place in my heart...

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ShoutOuts:

MYCH: talaga? ey your visions aren't corny sira... dreams are an essential part of a person's life.. without it.. then life wouldn't be fun right? challenges will face you but if you have the vision or dream.. then your undying desire will pull you through even in times of setbacks and adversities.. =) kaya mo yan MYCH... i believe in you..

I stopped reading memoirs.. cuz busy masyado... sa una palang ako :p.. bwiset... bitin na nga ako.. anyhoo, bwahaha.. tripping lang namin ng friend ko yung underwear model.. nanood kasi kami ng bench underwear fashion show e... tapos sabi namin pagdating ng panahon.. rarampa rin kami kasama nung mga yan hahahaha.. hay nako yun yung CrAzY vision.. pls lang noh.. hahahha...

RUSS: okay lang yun noh.. addik lang talga ako sa mga movies.. kaya nga wala na akong pera e hehhee...
RAIN: papi.. musta na? heheh... nde naman ako masyadong buff picture lang yan :p the magic of adobe photoshop! hehehe jk
MoMi LAY: Bacon Strips! nyay!!! boobs daw a hahahahah... natawa naman ako.. musta na? shet miss ko na kayo lahat ehhe...
AIKO: cge pagnagkita tayo sasayawan kita ng sex balls hahahahaha... wag ka magalala :p
CUZIn MarI: nax naman modeling agency ka na pala? ahem... ahem.. ahem... (/me flexes muscles).. aba e.. cuzin heheheh.. loko lang bwahahha.. musta na? miss na kita mwahugs!
PATTy: HaPpy VaLentine's Din!!! :P

watch "hitch"

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why?
1))this movie is so funny... i was laughing my ass off with the dance moves of this guy (KEVIN JAMES)

bwahahha...

2) if you think the trailer is funny watching the whole movie is 10x funnier!!! :)

3) i think it has a lot of heart and will smith was perfect for the role...



and

4) and eva mendes is hotttttt!!!!!


rating: 4/5 :D


okay guys.. im out :)



shoutouts:

AYA: yeah you've been gone for so long.. wasap na? and beer? ha! easy na ako nun noh hahaha...
MYCH: lugi ako pagracing tayo sa book noh.. haha... ikaw kasi yung teacher ako and student.. hmm when you think about it.. busy ka rin e.. wait ikaw dapat tanungin ko e.. who is busier the teacher or the student? okay lang... mktg pala tinuturo mo... i might try mktg cuz im curious :D i think marketers are cool...
RUSS: oonga e... bukas nga nde ako papasok kasi aral ako sa school the whole afternoon... :) galing nga e...
D!: yeah.. next time magbowling ka naman kasi ang corny mo hehehe...

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sorry guys ive been busy lately most of it cuz ive been going to the gym religiously...


and the result is...


tadah! hehe im out... malapit na akong magmukhang underwear model.. bwahahahaah...

i am still here =)

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my theme changed from party party party to school school school... uck! NERD ALERT!
ive been hella stressing on school for the past few days that had gone by. I guess I am still adjusting to the university life I never knew (YEAH RIGHT!) the fact is im old bwahahahha... and this is my fourth school after I graduated from high school (DLSU, DLSU-CSB, SKyLine and now San Francisco State Univ).. damn.. maybe that's why I can say I have lots of friends.. bwahahaha..

Seriously, university life is quite different especially when you are not used to so many people passing you by.. and some fine, fine ladies who are eye candies that you just want to pick out from the crowd... HOWEVER, it seems like I am more into academics than I have used to.. I fucken sit up front (the very front that is! and in the middle) so as not to get distracted from the crowd of people in the class.. (I even have a class that is around 150 people) that's sick! but you know my marketing teacher cracks me up so much! Which makes me want to pursue again my curiosity of having a marketing career. I gave that up because a movie made me realize that I don't want to live my life lying to people and tricking people to buying stuffs they don't need (Kate and Leopold -ey the dog's name is BART-)

Anyway, I did some thinking and I think I could live my life that way hahaha.. nah i am just kidding.. i realized that in that movie it was somehow exaggerated and it was more directed to the advertising people.. bwahaha.. and marketers dictate and open markets that consumers never knew they were in until the marketers do what they do.. am i making sense here? all i got from it is i think it's very challenging and i like thinking about annoying, funny, crazy... etc. (ya know me!) to get attention... hehhe... KSP!!! it's not really lying... basically it's about knowing what, why or when consumers buy.. this is where psychology comes in.. on how consumers think and how you would react to it.. that's why i think this fits me well...

i have to run.. catch you guys later... sorry!
im out!

i am back...

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from l.a. just this saturday... man i am fucken all partied out thurs, fri, sat night... i am so tired... can you imagine even one whole sunday did not help that much for me to rest and lie all day in bed.. that's why i am still tired.. tired.. tired.. today, ahem actually yesterday cuz it's 12:23am already... i arrived school at 7:30am.. grabe ang aga.. ang it looks like it's gonna be like this for me the whole semester... cuz i have to find parking now and it's hard to get parking at state (that's free!)-i won't pay friggin $5 per day there.. am i crazy?- if it's late... oh well.. at least may car na ako.. it's convinience but it has a price.. but id be happy to sacrifice for that as long as I drive a car to school =).. hayun... im still exhausted cuz I got so disgusted with myself cuz I think I drank a lot of beer last weekend especially last saturday night... it was wild.. crazy and weird... it marked the start of my classes again.. and once again I am going to focus and go crazy over everything about being a student... YAH! I'm gonna do this.. i can't wait for the next days to come... I am going to be busy.. well my motto still stands.. PARTY HARD, STUDY HARD! ha! btw, i am going to skyline this wednesday.. i miss you guys my fsu family..

i will be checking out Some FSU Bart's certified Hotties and CUTIES!!!
Nikki,Boston,Darlene,A.J.,Mellisa,and Zahra, =)
did i leave anyone... oh w8 i 4got MANtonio! bwahaha.. kidding.. i cant check out diane cuz i know she's down south already... oh well...

i need to catch some sleep... my thoughts are in a frenzied (wtf? tama ba? haha) mode right now.. it's mixed... so much has happened i dunno how to say it in a short way...

one more thing nga pala... happy birthday dindo.. binata ka na hahahahaha... wala lang.. secret!!!

i wanna give my special shoutouts to:


ATE DEANNA (hello my american idol cuz.. you are the best.. namiss ko na tuloy kayo... sarap sa bahay niyo ampunin niyo nalang kaya ako!!! =)


DINDO my cowboy cuz yee haa!!! (private joke haha!!! tsong isa lang ang masasabi ko 11:30 bwahahahahahah).. keep yo head up my PAC brother.. you will soon understand what its all about hehe....

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and GIAN- NYC is next in our list so you better watch out dindo and I are going east this MARCh spring break!!!! party party party... that's why I am saving up to give you guys a date with my friend HENNESSy hahahaha.... papaalisin natin ang roommate kasi wala lang hahaha


and to RICA a.k.a. SHELLY a.k.a. RACHEL thank you for being the perfect date wala na akong hihingin pa... pwede ka ng maging d.i. hahahha.. im just happy na you are happy.. and i am happy na nataas na ang status as manang to manong.. nyay!!! mali... hahahaa... nde anong manang.. after nung gabing yun.. napatunayan mo sa akin na the lil girl i used to know is now a lady that can still PARTYYY til morning.. woohhooo... don't worry ill see you soon.. there will be more crazy times to smile at =) crazier times ahead of us.. hehhee... i miss talking to you hit me up soon.. ingatz!

RUSS: hahah... ganon? gulat nga ako wow ang katawan!!! =) wtsup???? ingatz!
ATE IAN: huwag ka magalala masmaganda ka pa jan.. mascrush pa kita jan e kay rachael ray.. NYAY! dba Bing? hehehe... and it was a no problemo for me.. i hope you both like it.. at tama hehhhee.. did you check out my gift wrapping MaD SKILLZ???? ang mad noh? pasensya na hehehe...
LORNADAHL: ganon? hahaha.... naalala ko pa sila BSB for LIFe man.. disgusting.. inaasar ko nga palagi e.. si nick carter at patrick garcia yung mga hearthrobs nung time na yun.. kaya pinilit kong magpaundercut sa buhok hahahahaha... wala lang.. nagmukha tuloy akong mushroom hahaha...
MYCH: sarap magL.A. i wanna go back... ive been partying too much na though.. i need to take a break kaya.. im gonna hit my school books pag start na ang mga lectures... hehe... ikaw musta na?
ARIANE: tara babalik ako dun.. kita tayo siguro sa bahay ko mga 8pm. tapos pahatid nalang tayo kay dad sa airport.. ang labo ko e noh.. hahaha.. pasensyahan mo na ako.. eto lang ang naging outlet ng stress ko hahahah...
JUANI: peace!
LEAH: LAKERS BULOK! hehehe... lagay ka kaya ng tagboard bruha ka!
ANNA NICOLE: onga pawird na pawird ang mga language nila.. kakaiba na noh.. haha.. buti nalang i was studying my lessons before.. whoo.. kakahiya...

alright im out goodnight peeps.. be safe! peace!