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I scream a ri v er of
Incessant
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As a holocaust
of fear
dawns
upon me
and
s t e p on the dead leaves
of my past

I grasp fiercely the corolla of my rage
shattering mirrors of my own sorrows
waking up my sleeping eternal passions

I step forward
Into the light

triumphantly

and walk with my providence.


wala lang i was feeling poetic (PWETic) kaya just wanted to post my lastest PWEm
cge na read on nalang sa baba... hehe... i feel so conscious na noh... :p

b

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on the lighter side... :p

you have to check this out I was laughing my ass off... got this from jim's site
click here you have to give it to this guy... he just made laugh... panalo men panalo!!! if nde nagload yung pix... try clicking it again.. it's worth it pramis! dnt forget the click on the pics and all the links... sure laugh ito!!!

annoying incidents:
MAJOR
1)there is a skunk hanging out at our backyard at night... and the smell is something i couldn't describe.... ang hirap matulog... kaya puyat ako parati e

possible solutions:
(a) throw rocks at it
(b) buy a shotgun and blast it to a million pieces
(c) drive the car towards the backyard and run over it ten times... then do it again
(d) i will sing every night with my usher-like sintonado voice(magic mic quality!) :p so that it would leave and never come back again
(e) ignore it and wear a sars mask... (wachu call it? heheh!!)

MINOR
1) I left my cellphone at the house.. (o dba punyetang skunk yan e!) late ako nagising! (tama bang iblame yung animal hahhaa)
2)I left the transcript paper I was supposed to show the business dean (shet ito!) pero okay lang daw... cool naman siya bukas nalang daw
3) I lost my lighter too grrr...

What a day!

That's it... I'm out!

7 deadly sins

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Got this from ariane

ANGER

1. Who did you last get angry with? b
2. What is your weapon of choice? bad choice of words
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? no, simply cant do it
4. How about of the same sex? sure if he really pissed me off
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? b
6. What is your pet peeve? waiting
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? im used too keep but i try not too anymore

SLOTH

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a while? fix my bed... hahaha... and clean my room... fix my closet din
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? ummm 12pm cguro kc nagutom ako hehee.. i cant survive without food you know!
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't. ewan marami...
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? im studying..
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones)? can't take it... but sometimes when I just want to laugh heheh... nakakatawa kc yung mga taong nagaadvertise, yung mga iniinterview... mukha kcng tanga e hahaha
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? ummm... alarm clock ko family... pag malakas na ang sigaw gigising na ako hehe...

GLUTTONY

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? hmmmm
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark? white
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting? ummm.... cant remember... pero yung inatempt naming ubusin yung 2 bottles of henessy pro 1.5 lang e... hehhe
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? Nope
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? sometimes...
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty, or spicy foods? all of em
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH"? nah

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? aba malay hehe... marami....bwahahah
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? hahahhaha!!! what a question!
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?
huwaaatt? hahaha kung minsan pa nga kinukurot ko yung *toot* hehehe!!!
4. Have you "done it"?
what?
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?
eyes
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
nah but i just had a very disgusting indecent proposal
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?
nope

GREED

1. How many credit cards do you own? isa lang
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? ummm... garage sales hahahha
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? put 1/4 in the bank, 1/4 investment, 1/4 donate, 1/4 personal comsumption :)
4. Would you rather be rich or famous? rich
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? yeah... but it depends though...
6. Have you ever stolen anything? when i was younger ehem... marami
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? around 500 or more...

PRIDE

1. What's one thing you have done that you're most proud of? my 20th bday celebration!
2. What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of? aba ewan
3. What's one thing you would like to accomplish in your life? be a multi millionaire!
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? nah really
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill? yeah...hhehe.. pinilit lang ako
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? yup, if you say you haven't you know you are lying :)
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? got out of bed to go to school

ENVY

1. What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own? a car
2. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? probably bruce willis... idol! or 2pac or michael jordan
3. Have you ever been cheated on? maybe
4. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? yup... i wanna get taller!!
5. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? PATIENCE
6. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? gluttony!

annoying sight for 2day
a guy in his skateboard trying to impress his friends in front of the bus stop. and he truly sucks big time... nagproclaim pa siya na 8 years na daw siya ngskateboard... o dba... msg 4 u: isabit mo nalang sa wall yung skateboard and maglakad ka nalang pare!

three annoying things that happened to me yesterday

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STRIKE 1
While waiting for the bus, I needed to wait 30 minutes for the second bus to arrive and im stuck there in the cold waiting till 9pm.

STRIKE 2
While at the bus stop, beside me a guy was listening to a song over and over again in full volume. with the song by JOJO leave, get out...

STRIKE 3
While getting a haircut, the gayman cutting my hair was dicreetly asking me sexual favors in exchange for money. THAT's the most DISGUSTING thing ive ever heard! YOU ARE FUCK*NG sick man!!! being gay is not really a big thing for me... howver, it's when you practice your gayness towards me! cuz i have gay friends and they are cool... JUST DON't ever ever hit on me... cuz if you do.. i just might vommit at your face... man it still annoys me till now... ugh! the bad thing about it... while he was saying it to me... i just smiled... and hid my disgust... you fuck*ng FAG! i just don't wanna be rude... and i plan on not continuing getting my haircut there... damn... that's one sick shit!

im out!

Fear is stronger than love.

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But of course, deep down inside, being surrounded by all this love sentimental love schmuckness love makes me feel like that poor little alien with the abnormally big head, scrawny weird fingers, finding his way around this swarm of normal human beings holding hands with their partners.

- from ping's blog


Punyeta this line.

IT came unexpected I was just nosing around doing my blog rounds then I stumble upon rinka’s which she eagerly told her readers to read her favorite blogs… so I came upon this ping guy (which I think just made me an avid reader of his posts)…
his latest post just slapped me real hard, I felt my brain went dead.

(I suggest you read the post first before continuing) ping's blog

This is because whenever I see couples doing their thing, it sorts of alienates me. Something that makes me think that there is something wrong with me or inside me.

When I see them… usually, I tell myself, ang OA naman nila exag! Punyeta nde motel ito man… nakikita kayo ng lahat ng tao! Ang landi landi naman, mga haliparot!

And all the time I had thoughts like that, a layer adds each time and seals what I truly feel… I can call it a defense mechanism of some sort…

So after reading ping’s post the layers burned and I realized that
I guess deep inside me somehow I just wished it would happen to me.

Simply reading a lover’s true feelings just by staring at their eyes,
Simply slowly tracing your fingers in her face,
Simply having those funny moments you and your significant other secretly know about,
Simply fooling around, feeling free and don’t care about anything in this beautiful, loving world,
Simply taking a chance, do something crazy, taking you out of your normal life cycle, giving you experiences that you won’t get tired of, where every minute seems priceless, just both of you holding hands, cuddling each other and feel invisible of every damn thing.

just Simply feeling the magic of everything unfold right in front of your naked eyes

… and Simply knowing that before you sleep, tomorrow you can wake up and you can do it again and again and again…

Now why can’t I have that?
Is my life too perfect for these simple things that I feel I am desperately seeking for?
I don’t think so.

and
Why did we have to part ways? Isn’t it worth all the pain? That when I talk to you on the phone, I know there’s still something, but the smell of fear that creeps through the phone of being deeply hurt again seems stronger than the love that we still both share…

It is true what TUPAC said, “Fear is stronger than love”…

Shit. I just wish it were December already.

Simple lang akong tao na kung minsan ay parang
batang nawawala sa kalye na gusto lang magmahal at mahalin.

=,(



You are the Sun card. The light of the Sun reveals
all. The Sun is joyful and bright, without fear
or reservation. The childish nature of the Sun
allows you to play and feel free. Exploration
can truly take place in the light of day when
nothing is hidden. The Sun's rays fill you with
energy so that you may live life to its
fullest, milking pleasure out of each day. Such
joy and energy can bring wealth and physical
pleasure. To shine in the light of day is to
have confidence, to soak up its rays is to feel
the freedom of a child. Image from: Stevee
Postman. http://www.stevee.com/


Which Tarot Card Are You?
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about other things….

I am a sucker for this new show in HBO that I could not get enough… I don’t know kung meron na sa pinas but it’s called ENTOURAGE… parang sex and the city na lalake about an uprising young actor and his 3 friends... basta funny and entertaining...

hmmm.. I didn't get the yoga class hahhaa!!!! nangtritrip lang ako!!! so 19 units ako... tomorrow bday ng sis ko... wt else... cge na i have to go!

;p

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as requested by miss pms de castro hehe =)

-my first day of school-

it was the usual same ol same ol thing

EXCEPT

i had a 7 hour break from 12pm-7pm (which i do not recommend you guys doing!) then when I arrived at my last class my teacher (miss lawlor) i heard was still in EL SALVADOR. wtf? i waited so long for this shmuck and she ditched the class because she was still on vacation!

i think this will be a tough sem for me though, all my teachers that I have met so far are pretty serious and BoRiNg.i need to get high grades this sem to pull my GPA up. btw, i will be trying to add a real estate course subj tonight. im just curious on what its all about. there's no harm in actually trying it firsthand dba? cuz, as far as real estate is concerned here in northern cali, money is fast. I might get hooked up hehe... if i don't feel like it then ill just drop the class... wenkwenkwenk.... nothin to lose anyway! cuz i only pay $6 this sem... and that's the whole total thanks to the government and how they support low income families!(nde lang nila alam yung ibang savings namin asa pinas hehehe) in addition to that i get financial aid... and i can add any classes that i want and it's still the same total...

it's my second day and it's pretty amazing cuz now I get to see familiar faces and i think it's time for some serious butt kicking through studying. I read somewhere, that it's better busy than BORED. it's true so I might end up getting 19-20 units this fall! Chaching! Oh yeah im thinking of adding a yoga class din (daming chix dun!). Hahaha!!! but pretty gay-ish... but im just curious though, i heard its a good stress reliever... and a lot of monks and spiritual people do it too.. so you can't really put a name tag into something that you don't have any experience of! Judge me biatch!

Right now im in the library just waiting for my bus to arrive... oh men i gotta get my own car! i will get one soon... the hard part is over cuz i already have some saved money in the bank... the problem is what car will i get??? hmmm... what else? i will be busy ay salamas... kwentutan nalang tayo mamya... babayooo...

oh wait lemme give my shout outs to:

bayi: hey punta ka sunday! bday ni nix aug 22 hope you can make it...
b: hope youre ayt lang... call you soon... ;p
claire: happy bday ulit
patty my dear: miss youuuuu!!!!! iyan ah.... this post is for you! =)

2 everyone: i will be busy... but i know i will try my mostmost hardestest to squeeze time to keep you guys updated! keep yo head up!

im out!

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Shocker! Puerto Rico Stuns USA Men 92-73 In Olympic Opener

The men's basketball competition at the 28th Summer Olympic Games are now officially a wide open competition after the USA (0-1) was handed a stunning 92-73 loss by Puerto Rico (1-0) Sunday night in in opening preliminary round play at the 2004 Olympic Games in Athens.



(pic and text taken from usabasketball.com)

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The USA men's bball team is disgusting! Ugh! Anyway, Gary Payton doesn't want to play for the celtics. He said that he would retire rather than play for the celtics. Payton said Lakers Management disrespected him. Oh well, Gary matanda ka na...

This is officially my last day of summer. School is starting tom. What a Joy! I'm so bored that I want to go to school. Can you imagine that? Tapos after 1 week ayoko na hehhe... My birthday is on September 7 wala lang..

im out.

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Worldly ups and downs
Should be treated
As lightly as clouds
Gathering and breaking up.

- Anon
(I stole this quote from haringliwanag)

I am sitting here contemplating
on the next few weeks that will come.

Next thing I know i will be a year older.

I feel like I am stuck not knowing what purpose I have
and why do I think that

I am meant to commit the same mistakes over and over again?

I hate to think that nothing has changed,
but the truth is a year older makes me scared.

That when tomorrow comes, it might be too late.

I keep telling myself that I want to look back at my life
smiling, thinking to myself what a crazy, beautiful life I have lived,

close my eyes, and drift away in the skies above.

However,

that is not the case,

and I will be twenty two in the next couple of days...

and it bothers me.

I'm just down... =( I guess this too will pass...
I should just enjoy these upcoming weeks...


Worldly ups and downs
Should be treated
As lightly as clouds
Gathering and breaking up.

- Anon

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stole this from vic...

20 Questions to a Better Personality

Wackiness: 40/100
Rationality: 66/100
Constructiveness: 78/100
Leadership: 56/100


You are an SRCL--Sober Rational Constructive Leader. This makes you an Ayn Rand ideal. Taggart? Roark? Galt? You are all of these. You were born to lead. You may not be particularly exciting, but you have a strange charisma--born of intellect and personal drive--that people begin to notice when they have been around you a while. You don't like to compromise, but you recognize when you have to.

You care absolutely nothing what other people think, and this somehow attracts people to you. Treat them well, use them wisely, and ascend to your rightful rank.

click here

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ang dami naman nangyari :)

tuesday:
a new baby cousin yehey! may bagong sister si estefinee... ang name niya sofia... cute baby!

wednesday:
my last day at mervyn's... hay salamat tapos na rin ang two jobs ko..i can feel summer

thursday:
it was lola's day so we watched IMELDA near downtown sf.


it was finely crafted and to think that it was made by a filipina, and the fact that it was shown here is a great feeling for every filipino living here. It wasn't biased because the first part showed what Imelda was behind the spotlight. Where she came from, what she was--- before being Imelda Marcos... Anyway, I really loved it and after the movie, I really thought she was a psycho, P-S-Y-C-H-O... pasenysa na sa mga Marcos loyalists... after explaining the "8 portals to freedom" and the PACMAN diagram... dang it made me ask myself... what she was taking for medication.. nagdrudrugs ata itong babae na ito...and she only sees what she wants to see... and who can forget... the computer being connected to the creator? punyeta wtf? what a crazy woman.. anyway, i have to confess i really thought that the meeting with kadafi and saddam was truly courageous and inspring; however, after explaining those things.. all i can say is... kakaiba talga si imelda.. kakaiba... watch it... it's nice.. nakakaiyak yung kay ninoy man... meron nga sa likod ko.. half of the movie ata umiiyak e... nyay! hahah... i like the documentary, i think it was fair and just... sa huli mo lang malalamn yun kasi... marerealize balanced yung views kasi the first part was all the good IMELDA... sa huli lang yung baho niya na napapanood natin at napagaaralan natin sa school...

friday:
it was lolo's day

we went to sony metreon in downtown to watch the MANCHURIAN CANDIDATE (cuz i promised him we would watch it). It was a second remake of this movie.. it's pretty interesting and the story was clearly portrayed.. not to mention a superb acting job by merryl streep and denzel washington.

the only thing that i didn't like was mejo bitin ang ending... it was good all through out yung huli lang talga bitin man... :) hayun nilibre kami ni nicole

tapos ako sa food... :) kain kami sa blondie's pizza.. ang laki ng pizza man!!! hehe... at ang sarap... i wanna eat there again...


yummy pizza!

then ikot ikot kami sa downtown.. bili si lolo ng shirt sa lacoste para sa kaibigan daw niya sa pinas... ang mahal putangina! wala lang hehe... at pumasok kami sa burberry... putangina masmahal cno naman bibili ng tie na $105 b.s.! anyway, buti nalang may malaking old navy sa may papunta sa parking namin... hehe.. dun kami nagshopping... mwahahaha... ano pa kc? hayun hinintay namin si mom.. then ayos na lahat...

saturday:
it was bayi's day

i worked 1-9:30pm
then derecho sa bahay... i got wasted hhahah... that was fun.. kahit na mejo my thoughts were messed up cuz of my dad... i knew it was bayi's day and no bribe can change that! Dba bayi? kahit kotse ba naman (whops private joke) wag niyo ng isipin ... hahah... hayun ang highlights ay nasa camera lahat ni ate marc (ang pinakamaganda at pinakasexy na ate ni bayi) :p ... basta... walang duraan.. si chino talga o.. hahah... at wait yung bandana photos and mean mugging photos... ang crips at bloodz... hehehhe... the best... we tried to finish two bottles of hennesy pero we can't... ang lakas man... sabay sabay kami tinamaan... kaya nga amy picture kami ni bayi ginawa niyang bandana yung paper towel at ako yung basahan e ahahhahaha... wala lang.. at yung febreeze hahaha... hayun... basta

note to self: if drinking henessy use beer and coke as chaser


sipping on some f*ckng henessy bitch!

okay im out.

oh w8... some reactions on mari's Kanya-kanya lang post... she said it all... hehehee... good job cuz! quoted from her post....

There are still things that we choose to keep to ourselves, but if we choose to write it here, for anybody to read, kaya namang namin panindigan yun. We write to vent out, to share our crazy times, our views on certain things..and even sometimes, it becomes an unoffficial review of a movie/book/cd or whatever-detailed or not. An entry is never to offend anybody, or destroy a reputation

wala lang... i am definitely out.