nyay!

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i have been so busy that i haven't had time to write... i feel bad... i love blogging pa naman... oh well... busy ako kc we are moving to our new house here in millbrae kaya we are fixing all our things para maayos ang paglipat... my mom asked me to help in the payment monthly cuz buying a house here is REALLY REALLY expensive... although its worth it cuz at least you pay your monthly and it goes to your house unlike... staying in an apartment in which you pay rent.. its cheaper pero if you look at it, pagtumagal ka naman dun... parang sana binayaran mo nalang yung sarili mong house... wala lang...

the check from the p.i. came yesterday kaya we are just waiting for our realtor to close the deal... i hope it will be a matter of a few minutes... tapos pwede na kami maglipat... haaayyy stress...

i feel like i am not on my summer vacation because i am oh so busy... cuz like what i always say with my friends here... "i am living the american dream, i work TWO jobs and GO to school"... then laugh after saying it sarcastically...... o dba lahat sila hihirit...suicide daw hahaha... but its ayt.. ayt... however i need a vacation sometime soon... i feel the stress beating me down... i lack sleep... sometimes my work ends at 2:00am at the airport.. then the next day i have to go to class.. o dba... syet... i was talking to my supervisor just two days ago.. sabi ko... "dito ko lang talga naramdaman ang stress.. kasi ikaw lahat gumagawa... if you want something you have to work hard for it...but i seem to like it"... and i dunno why... its more of being independent and free... well that's what i think..

well, where does love come in to the picture? well, love exists in between everything in my sked... when i am at work.. or when i am at school... when she calls me up and i hear her voice... i feel calm.. i feel strong.. i feel happy... :) .... quoting from the book, "tuesdays with morrie"... "LOVE ALWAYS WINS"...

even if i think she does not feel the same way about me and i still have doubts... i think its in the process... i must pace myself... and take it one day at a time... i have to give her time to let her heal the wounds of her past.. we talk almost everyday... i consider her as my best friend.. and if ever we can't be "more than friends".. when the time comes... id still accept it... i don't mind.. call me a fool... but i am just happy... that she made my heart beat again....

and as for a good friend of mine *B... thanks... you really helped me in one of my lowest moments... luv yah mwah!

my lola asked me if i wanted to spend xmas back home... im still thinking about it.. cuz of work and school.. cuz im planning to transfer to a university next sem.. i hope things do work out...

i wanna go to simbang gabi and eat bibingka, i wanna eat green mangoes and bagoong... i wanna eat kwek kwek and fishballs... i wanna ride the jeep and lrt... mixing my sweat with my fellow countrymen... i also wanna eat at pares in vito cruz with the draybers and conduktors... i wanna go to u.m. and buy pirated cd's at gift mart (yung kay JOF)... haha... i wanna go to gale and reminisce about my highschool days... i wanna go back to my high school... LSGH.... hmmm... i wanna hang out at sec cubicle... i wanna go to DLSU... and walk sa SJ walk hahha... i wanna play basketball at the sports complex... i wanna hang out at agno and eat taco salad... then yosi... tapos hanapin si tolits para kumain ng kikiam tapos kain ng cotton candy na may powdered milk tapos kain ng dirty ice cream hahaha.... tapos i wanna go sa likod ng benilde para sa kwek kwek... tapos punta sa apt ni karlo sa mervin terraces.. order ng spanish bread at coke na naka plastic sa tabi ng bldg nila.. tapos kwentuhan kulitan... tawanan... haaayy

those are the days... just simple things that make me happy... i wanna go back home... :( ... friends i will be seeing you soon... watch out... bigla na lang ako bubulaga sa inyo hahhaa!!!

ay teka lang... i wanna go to the beach too... bora or palawan.. go to sagada again or pagudpud.. wtever... or somewhere i haven't been like cebu or batanes... or bohol.. or anywhere my feet would take me.. i wana travel... i just love my country...

by the way, i want to just runaway with *B too... :) .. cuz she's my best friend back home... :( miss you!

alright guys just take it easy! chillax as vic said.. hahha... ingat lang :)

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my girl best friend, my confidant, my yosi partner,
the closest person that I have ever met that I can label as my soul mate.

ladies and gentlemen... my inspiration,

renee.

miss you.

fuck... daming nangyari peeps... i couldn't write them all down.. basta babawi ako...

this is the moment ive been waiting for...
where closing my eyes would be the last thing i wanna do....
and my heart beats making a soft rhythm
with just a glimpse of this pic.

i am in love.

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Today is 6-15-04

Intro

I cried 3 times today.

In front of a close friend
By myself all alone
And in front of you and the whole family

It took me seven cigarette butts and a cup of Starbuck’s mocha frap before I could gather these words for you.

I thought it would be impossible for me to go to class after what just happened.

But, I know in order to succeed I should praise what you always praise

and that is to finish my education and put it first in after God and my family.

I was just sitting there staring at the colossal trees, the magnificent green grass, and that gorgeous, marvelous sun.

In my twenty one years of existence,
today marks the day,
the first time I answered you back.

This resulted to one of the biggest battles of my life.

Of all people, I never expected it was going to be you
that I am defending myself with.

So today, I decided to write down my deepest and truest thoughts that has been long over due,

I now offer you these words that come from within….





For the man who is responsible why I am alive 2day
4 my dad

I.
You even named me after you

for that blessing, I thank you.
The name RENE is quite legendary to my world
because every time I introduce myself
and say my name

I feel proud

because I know your name has such fine, exquisite history…
that you could write a very thick book about all your
adventurous achievements
and
amazing accomplishments
about your life,
from the time grandma terry bore you as her son
until today.


You even took care of me when I still a baby.

I knew that one day when I grow up.
I will be like you.
strong, fearless, and daring.
the way you walk
that shiny white smile.
and the way you interact with people.

people look up to you
and admire you for your honesty, sincerity and wits.

You even dedicated your l i f e to me.

no matter what,
you were motivated to do whatever it takes to be the best father in the world.

for this,

you have my utmost respect

you make me respect you
that the roots of my soul
shakes every time you passed by.

you have proven to me
that you would cross the lines of being a father so just you know I will be fine.

I will bet everything that I possess,
that you would even give your own life just for me.

I am honored.

I feel lucky.

I feel loved.

In order to make up for everything you have done for me,
I want to dedicate my life to my ambitions and aspirations

so that one day

all your hardships and sacrifices in the past
just to put food inside my mouth
and for me to live a decent life
would be all worth it

II.

Not a day would pass by
that I can’t wait for the time that

YOU
will proudly say that

si Bart, anak ko yan.

My dream would be
for all people’s ears to open up to you
for every breathing person to be uplifted by your presence

because you have raised a very extraordinary, talented man.

This will result to countless men’s heads
turning toward your direction
with their beliefs shaken,
and their minds would bow down to your beguiling feat

because

the man that you call your son
is the tiny cry-baby boy,
you woke up for at 2am in the morning
just to change his diapers.

the man that you call your son
was your student in every aspect of his life,
and he has rode responsibly beside your wings.

the man that you call your son
is now soaring high because
for him,
he knows that


YOU believed in him
the MAN he looked up to, took care of him
the HERO that the boy knew was always there for him.

and YOU knew
when it was time to let him off to the world.


As of today,
no matter what this young man will do with his life,
he will always decide with an
honest heart,
open mind,
and as always with morality

just like the father he grew up with.

III.

there will be
no greater glory,
no sweet victory,
no more desirable conquest

if I will not have your blessing and your supreme admiration.

so I will forever fight for that space.

the right to kill for a dream.

the desire to do whatever it takes to make
and deserve your utmost respect,
to make you feel honored,
to feel that you are lucky,
and to make you feel loved.



I love you dad
and I will use
every living limb,
every part of my body,
my whole soul,
my entire life,
to dedicate it you.

You are the man that is responsible for why I am alive 2day.

For this, I thank you.

Happy Father’s Day.

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My gift is not much
I thought of giving you an expensive, huge gift
but all i can offer you is these words.

just a few words that will change both our lives forever.


P.S.
As for, my nicotine craving… just like YOU this too shall pass… don’t worry I know what I am doing….

thank you for being so understanding.

Come on, :) you have been here before too *wink*wink*…
Happy father’s day! Love you!

It has been an emotional week...

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Today is thursday...

this has gotta be one of the most madramang weeks ever...

i cried 3 times...

one, in the arms of my very very good friend ate darryl (thanks talga ha? mwah!)

second, was all by myself... while filling my lungs with nicotine and caffeine...

lastly, was in front of my dad, and the whole family...

not everybody knows my relationship with my parents...

i don't come from a broken family

they're definitely not bad parents...

it's just that i never really felt that they were there for me...

i think the worst thing that can a son see is not his parents separating...

the worst feeling in the world would be knowing that they exist
and they are there
but

you don't feel that they know you even exist. you just play a role and they are just playing their role... just that... no fulfilling purpose

a love that is empty...
a love that shouldn't exist

that is ladies and gentlemen is the biggest pain i have felt...

from the moment i learned how to think and react to what I perceive...

I never cried in front of them.. but i couldn't help it... tears fell out like how words come to me...

it was a good feeling...

i felt my tears' echoes made through them...

i felt heard

i felt alive...

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BTW,
LA lost

Happy birthday 2pac AMARU SHAKUR 6/16/04

Ill C U in heaven


and wait before i end this post... let's just say.. all those emotional crap... and kabaklaan melted yesterday....

she hugged me back...

renee hugged me back...

all the pain, wounds healed...
i felt like i could die while savoring the feeling...
she felt so good in my arms...

i think im falling really deep...

deeper

and deeper

The weekend I will never recommend you doing.

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=)

Friday night slept late at 12am because I couldn’t sleep, and I was tired too because I just came from work.

Saturday morning I was off to marine world with my friends from school. Man! I was bored to death because I was just there last month with my relatives. However, I had to remind myself that it was also somehow a time for me to enjoy and relax. My schedule has been really like a roller coaster ride. It’s insane. Anyway, the only reason why I went there is because I just wanted to get out of the house and take a deserving break from work. Oh and also, I wanted to hangout with friends in a different environment. We rode almost everything and watched the shows. It was okay. Steady lang. I longed for camaraderie and the kulitan kaya I really dragged myself to go there. I never really considered to belong in a barkada here. But you know what, I just felt that I belonged. Of course, iba pa rin yung samahan at mga barkada ko sa Pilipinas. SYEMPRE the best kayo pero dba… i am here and you guys are there. I can’t physically be with you, actually miss ko na talga kayo but I also have to find friends here dba? hehe… hayun, the only barkada I know here, and I will always come back to is the barkada of bayi and me. Naks kabadingan! hahah!! nde si bayi kasi super bait niyan e (pagtulog), wacky rin at crazy. =) Nde parang kapatid ko na kasi trato ko jan nakatira ako sa bahay nila every Saturday night na e hehhehe…ampon na daw heheh… nagagalit nga mom ko e… nakakainis nga eh nakekeelam oh well…

Hayun nga hanggang 9pm kami sa marine world. Tapos 10pm dating ako sa bahay ni bayi… kain ako ng steak (yum) kasi birthday ng mom niya… then we had a date with mr. daniels. Grabe nde naming maubos ang jack daniels ang laki laki naman kasi e… we were drinking while and singing to love tunes… nakakatawa nga e… we were singing “let it burn, let it burn”… hahahha hanggang ngayon natatawa ako ang kulit pero okay pala pag may tama ka na tapos kumakanta no ehhehe wala lang….ang drinking and singing session namin stopped at 2:30am cuz we had to wake up early for bball… ehehhe.. bumigay na ako bago kasi matulog kasi I also drank HPNOTIQ you should try this… it’s craaaazzzzzzyyyy!!!! hahahahha!!!! ang bilis tumama men… hilo ka after 5-10minutes wooo!!! Tapos we slept at 2:30 dba?

Sunday
woke up at 7:30am
played bball 8am -11am
pahinga and ligo till 12:20pm
simba habang occasionally na pumupikit 12:30pm-1:30pm
dating ako sa bahay. Linis ng gamit… brush my shoes… eat then sleep for an hour… kasi work ako

5:30pm - 1:30am

kaninang umaga lang ako natapos may work pa nga ako starting 4pm maya… so eto lang talga pahinga ko… hay naku stress stress stress pero i am starting to like it…

by the way i wanna end this post by citing a poem by
2PAC AMARU SHAKUR

man! i didn’t know that he wrote love poems too… Brian (my best friend’s brother) allowed me to bring his 2pac book with me home.. Actually, I have to be honest, I was scared because my obsession for 2pac’s poetry has been phenomenal. I am having a hard time ending my day without even listening to his music. Now that I have read his poetry it is getting worse… making me want to be like him as another day passes…


Dedicated to the people who loves to read poetry
by: bart

After you have read a person’s poem

you have used your naked eyes to strip that man’s flesh

ripped his heart open for your whole world to see

and shredded his brain into a million pieces.

It is up to you on how you take it in.

My
advice
for
you

is to just accept it with an honest heart because

after you have read a person’s poem


that is the only time

you have miraculously translated the scriptures of his soul.

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taken from the book,
“Tupac Amaru Shakur: The Rose that Grew From Concrete”



(remember my last post… i don’t understand guys playing with relationships… well 2pac has some words for them too… read on..)

Why Must U Be Unfaithful
4 women

MEN!
u shouldn’t listen 2 your selfish heart
It doesn’t really have a brain
Besides keeping u alive
Its existence is in vain
“How could I be so mean,
and say your heart is in place?”
Because mortal men fall in love again
as fast as they change their face
I may be cruel, but think awhile about
The hearts that u have broken
Match that with the empty vows
and broken promises u’ve spoken
I am not saying females R perfect
Because men we know it’s not true
But why must you be unfaithful
If her heart is true 2 u!!!

(this is nice so all you player’s stop playing and love with a pure heart… tsk tsk tsk…)

(oh this one is nice too… one of my favorites…)

March 1st—The Day After April
dedicated 2 the divorce of me & april

Today I wake and feel even lonelier
But I c positive potential
My heart shook much like the quake
Then the pain was gone
The arctic breeze formed the fortress
Barricading my fragile heart from Pain

It is not that I don’t love you
and it was because I did love you
that I must move on
as long as I breathe
I will remember
“WE AS 2”
( i have a lot of favorites… ill post it next time ayt)

okay… im out… have to rest pa no pls lang.. mwah!

wala lang.. :)

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Quote for the week:

(from my dad at 5:00am in the morning, June 10,2004 i have to drive him to work you know? 5 days a week then pick him up at 10pm when has work in the evening)

sabi ba naman niya...

Bart, layuan mo yung babae na yan nachichismis kayo sa prospect (company name where i work) tinatanong sa akin ng mga tao kung magpapakasal kayo. Hwag ka masyadong makipagclose jan baka mapikot ka.

nde ako makasagot dahil... nakatulog ako past 3 am and sobra sobra sa bangag ako... kaya i ignored him nalang pagkauwi ko natawa nalang ako hahahha!!! daddy ko talga love na love ako mwahahaha kya ang hirap hirap pag ikaw lang ang lalake sobra sobra paranoid ng parents ko pagdating sa mga babae....dad ko kasi nagpasok sakin sa prospect e... so co-worker ko siya.. hayun... praning talga yun.. buti nalang birthday mo kahapon dad hahaha... love you dad!! happy birthday nalang sayo...

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Hay naku bakit ganun? I still can't be myself when I am with her. Siguro I need more time to know her at get used to the feeling inside... Dang, I can't even drive properly while she is beside me.. ang hirap nagmukhang careful driver tuloy ako kasi sinusunod ko yung speed limit at street signs hahahah ( i became boring!)... pagkababa ko nga sa knya.. sinalpak ko yung tupac cd ko na binigay ni bestfriend bayi tapos parang siraulo na naman ako magdrive... sabay hirit habang nagdradrive "i came from the streets of manila bitches!!!" haha.. hayun kahit papaano "poised" pa rin ako kumbaga ika nga ni mama ondeng "qt mode". Pero paunti unti na nakikilala ko siya im getting used to the feeling na and i am slowly acting to be the makulit me.. i asked her about relationships.. ang sabi niya mahihirapan siya kaya its gonna take time... kasi galing lang siya sa isang 3 year relationship may ka-live-in siya na italianong kamukha daw ni nick lachey sabi ng mga co-workers namin kaso sama naman daw ng ugali... kaya ngayon siya nalang magisa sa apt niya at may sarili siyang car... hirit ba naman ng uncle dd (bunso sa family ng dad ko) "convenience".. hahah wala lang... anyway, 4 months palang sila naghiwalay.. jerk kasi e... nambabae... hay naku same old same old... bakit ganun no? oh well... kung minsan i pity women for being disrespected and being cheated almost all the time... kya when i was growing up i knew i wanted to be different... having 3 sisters gave me enough reasons to respect a woman and loving her for what she is.. i find it hard to absorb that having a spare is a man thing... oh well...

The woman I just met is a bad ass that's how she decribes herself... age 16 na juvi daw siya... pinagupit daw siya ng grass sa bundok... kasi daw she stole a credit card when she worked at sears nangtritrip lang daw... at the age of 17 she was kicked out of the house cuz of his 5 year older boyfriend.. she drinks hennesy.. she smokes one pack a day... i think she has a gambling problem... her mom had to give her up to her lola cuz she was too young to take care of a baby... therefore she became a rebel because she blamed her mom for not getting her and is still blaming her til now... but nakabond ko yung lola niya sabi niya siya daw ang may kasalanan kasi nung kinukuha daw nung mom niya si renee ayaw bigay nung lola niya kasi wala daw siyang baby.. ano pa kasi... basta napaka extreme yung mga experiences sa buhay niya... kaso kung minsan tamad lang nga... ang egotistic grabe.. exag

siguro by now tinatanong niyo kung bakit ko siya nagustuhan? kung minsan ako rin nakatanga... nakahiga sa kama at nagtataka bakit ganun? pero kung minsan may mga bagay na nde mo na maexplain... nangyayari nalang... what im doin is im just "riding with the wave"... im just so happy that this feeling came to me and something inside my mind sparked.. and this happened..

im having hard time explaining it.. pero lahat ng inlove ngayon.. can relate i bet...

anyway, she is still playing with the fact that I like her... she referred to me as a very very good friend... i dunno what that means and i dunno when she will come around... i have to be honest kung minsan i want to just give up and say to her na i don't feel that she even likes me... but then again.... nde pa talga siguro siya ready... i bet it will take a lot of time... ang dami kong karibal man... ang dami kung alam niyo lang... hay naku kung minsan nga nai-iinsecure ako sobra.. kasi sobrang gwapo at sobrang laki ng katawan ng mga pumuporma sa knya... i just hope things will fall into place... like i want it to be... well i guess that would be asking too much dba?.. oh well, all i can say is like before... i won't force nman someone who to like me.. ill just give it all ive got.. and if she chooses someone else... it won't really affect me that much... all i know that if you overcome the fear of failure, there is nothing else to fear…im just happy that she made me write again...

hayun.. i will end it na... cge ingat lang lagi peepz!! :)

Other things:

Dang! the lakers lost yesterday badtrip pare...
I'm going to marine world nga pala bukas summer classes start tues kaya labas naman ako.. hayy... add sa stress yung school next week... feeling ko it's gonna be... one helluva week... it's gonna be stress week again :)

oh well.. that's it for me!
peace!

Weakness

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I breeze through the roads of this foreign land now I call home.
As I walk alone, the wind gushes through my face in a fierce manner…
it brings with it the memories, fears, and hopes from my simple mind..

here I am again at your feet…

writing my thoughts in order to unleash these hidden feelings gathered inside me..

here goes..

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WEAKNESS

If not a brave soul living
dared enough to speak like this about you.

Well, allow me to stand out from the rest.

With just a glimpse of you, my w h o l e world stops moving.

I am simply mesmerized just by staring at your face,

it’s like gazing through the first traces of daylight
after waking up in the morning,
in which, the glow from your face
s l o w l y
illuminates my body up to the farthest corners of my soul.

When you smile,
armies of imprisoned souls are set free.

It fills hope to countless desolate minds,
including myself.
Just by smiling,
you have presented eternal life to my deceased spirit.

Hearing your voice is like listening to angels singing
as I kneel down and pray in front of heaven’s gates…

full of bliss and so calm, in which creates a melody of freedom.
releasing every emotion for you that I have felt…

I want to get drunk with the fragrance of your skin,

just the scent of it dissolves all my fears and insecurities
transforming them into parachutes of reasons to face whatever
adversities that I may encounter.


Being with you melts the
frozen ocean of fire
that I have built
with my bare hands.

You lure me to dive into the icy waters of love
that drowned me

before.

This time,
something inside me is telling me that
I finally found the one who can save me...


I am now having a hard time extinguishing these flames from reigniting…

So I ask myself now,

how can I not fall for you?
silently, I searched an answer to this question.

It came unexpectedly,

making a brave soul find its weakness…



you.

In my lifetime, I only consider two people that I have shared my soul with.

Today, I offer you mine.

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Remarks:

I won't give this poem to her until the right time comes...
I guess by now.. you know how deep my feelings are for her...

It became worse.
The love sickness has taken its toll...
it has came out to get me.

help me.

I can't stop it.

Malalim na pare. Malalim na talga.

I have to think this through.

I kept on reminding myself that I can't fall for someone I just met.

It's stupid.

It's immature.



It's something else.

Please bear with me. I am not myself lately.

Prediction for next week: RELAXING WEEK!

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(1)
I was really happy to see that my schedule for work next week isn't that stressful... my prediction would be it's gonna be a relaxing week... all i can say is... sana tuloy... mwahaha...(change topic) basta my cousin called me up 2 days ago and i almost lost my mind.. i can't believe it.. i still can't... it's something good... it's what ive been waiting for... my dream... every pinoy kid's dream.. keep up with my posts... it's gonna be an one of the most exciting moments of my life... one day next week... it's gonna change my life... my experiences... finally this is one of those that I would keep a secret from eveyone until it happens... mwahahha.. basta abangan...

(2)
I just tasted american (a)doobie last night... i feel so bad (mwahahaha)... pero i tasted it lang naman.. it was okay... im a bad bad man... pero to the people who are there.. you are not missing anything... wala parents ko sa house e... they went to las vegas... tapos after i took care of my responsibilities my friend called me up.. natutulog na mga bata so it was cool... my friend came here with his macho van... man it was huge.. pang delivery hahaha... we were with his girlfriend and girlfriend's best friend.... saya hahaha!!!! wala lang... hindi ganon kalakas yung tama.. oh well... responsible naman ako... mwahahaha... kuya bart is bad... at night... ahhaha!!!!

(3)
As for love, I am not IN LOVE. i just got carried away... maybe im just crazy about this woman... but i AM NOT IN LOVE. Maybe emotional lang ako that day cuz i am so sick and tired of being alone... Dang I just met her... but she is one of those people that just inspires me to write. That's all.. maybe when the right time comes... but not right now.. its too soon... love is so hard to define for me right now.. i feel so numb... but words are still hunting me down.. i might write about her again, who knows?... usually i write a poem for 3-7 days kaya mejo jologs ang aking nasulat kong last kasi 2 hours ko lang nagawa... oh well... her name is renee... can you imagine our name evens sounds alike... my real name kasi is rene wala lang like my dad.. it's so weird... it's as if i met her before... connection.. super.. it's something else.. but the thing is.. sometimes ang labo niya ... i don't know if she even likes me... oh well... ladies eto ang hirap pag guy ka... guys are having a hard time at this stage... i think masmaganda nalang kasi if sasabihin para nde na kami mapaasa... kasi maiinis ka lang e.. wala lang... i don't really care about failing or if she has someone else now... all i know is im trying my hardest to let her know... that I am crazy about her... then if she's not interested THEN.. wala naman mawawala sa akin e... at least she taught me to write again... hehehe... i don't really care man! mwahahaha!!! if she closes her door... soemebody better will come to save me :)... i am a guy who believes in true love.. i believe in everything as long as there's love... I just love falling in love.. it's something i consider as a blessing... cuz it gives me hope...and it makes me feel free... the feeling is different from anything else i have experienced in this world.

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Merong lasalle-ateneo basketball matchup dito sa bay area every year. I just met one who plays for ateneo... he told me he is gonna hook me up. YEAH! anyway, guess where ko nakilala? sa st. dunstan where my sisters go to school... and you know why? haha... it's a father's day event sa school... dad ko kasi nasa lasvegas remember? hayun so nagpanggap akong tatay... naka gray sweat shirt pamo ako at jeans at rubber shoes hahaha... ang angas with my shaved head hahaha!!! hayun kinausap ako ng dalawang dad... yung isa lasalle yung isa ateneo... yung taga lasalle chief operating officer ng SEGA. hahah.. sabi ko nung bata ako panaginip kong magtrabaho for sega or any video game comapany hahah... tapos yung taenista ay atenista pala (excuse meeE) sa insurance. ayos naman... i hope masali ako... LASALLE represent BABY!!! heheh cge... have to go na... miss ko na kayo!!!!


take it easy guys! :D abangan ang next posts... it's gonna be something else...

stress grabe!

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im so stressed... if my stress level was from my feet to my knees before... now the stress level is from my feet to my neck... this is because i have two jobs... i plan on quitting my old job though cuz it's so hard... i think i deserve to enjoy my summer right? man im so stressed!

Bayi and I drank jack daniels and hpnotic last weekend... wala lang... its was ayt.. i feel like an alcoholic now hehe... my nicotine addiction has been worse.. and i talked with my friend, ben, a while ago.. finally im gonna taste american doobie this week.. if plans push through.. just wanna try it hehe...

anyway have to hit the sack have work pa in the morning! ciao! :)