5/31/2005

Just got this from an email...



Carrot, Egg, or Coffee Bean?

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen.

She filled three pots with water. In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs and the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what do you see?" "Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied. She brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. She then asked her to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg. Finally, she asked her to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled, as she tasted its rich aroma.


The daughter then asked. "What's the point, mother? Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity - boiling water- but each reacted differently.


The carrot went in strong, hard and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior. But, after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?" Think of this: Which am I?

Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity, do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and a hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.

When the hours are the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate to another level? How do you handle Adversity?

ARE YOU A CARROT, AN EGG, OR A COFFEE BEAN?

5/27/2005

the end.



I can't believe two at the same time.
The 1st one was kinda not as heavy as the second one though.

#1: I am really sorry but I was "under the influence" at that time. I don't want to break promises (wait I actually felt really really guilty cuz I turned you down). It's just that I am trying to cleanse myself..in short ayoko na.. I told myself I am done with that kind of business.. I don't want to be that other guy.. It's getting old.. Im getting old... oh well... I am sorry I am just trying to clean up.. I just need something serious now.. I am done with no strings attached.. I need to buff up... I need something stable.. I am sorry...

#2: I truly felt it... iba na tayo ngayon.. we've grown apart. You can even sense it in our voices when we talked a while ago... nagaaway na tayo... jealousy o whatever you call it.. nde naman tayo.. so why do I feel this way? and why do you also feel that way.

Before, Ang gulo... pero masaya tayo. Pero ngayon ang gulo pero iba na... masaya pa rin pero iba na.. I know alam ko we still have each other's back.. iba ang samahan at kwentuhan natin.. walang makakapalit nun.. the crazy times we had just laughing our asses off sa hollywood not giving a damn about what ppl will think (haha... and you spit your coffee when you heard my dwende joke :p man classic yun!) ... Even if sandali lang tayo nagsama.. I still want you to know everything I felt was real.. every single thing, every detail, it was real.. I wasn't playing.. and you know it because we both felt it.. there's no denying in that.. Grabe we had our share of jokes... and we were so crazy about each other.. but there are times that you have to let go a person.. because hanggang doon nalang... maybe in the future mag tugma ulit ang paths nating who knows dba? (malay mo sa august? ;p) it happened two times already.. i don't see no reason why it can't happen again... but now.. we just have to move forward... you have a great future ahead of you (amdami pang lelekeng darating noh!) ... I know because I believe in you.. I am with you every step of the way.. Just call me or something and lamo namn ikaw lang beb ko e :p .. "what are friends are for" dba? hehehe... oh well..

I never really said thank you...
sobrang thanks for everything.. you don't know how much you mean to me.. payce...

*mwah*
*hug*
bye


the end.

5/17/2005

*sigh*....




just wanna share this song...

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I'm so tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me


I'm glad PCn is done.. after so much work for that it's finally out of the way... and i am very very happy with the way things went... even if there were a few glitches.. the audience had fun... even my family.. and all of my friends....

okay okay for all of you who don't know yet.. i acted in a play.. basically my roles were to provide comedy because the play was too damn DRAMA... so...

I had two roles... hehe.. galing noh? one was TITA DINA... yEs i played an old lady.. yes i was wearing a wig... yes i was wearing drag queen makeup... yes um.. yes.. i was wearing a dress... bwahahahahaha... hay nako.. my passion for public humiliation talga oh hahaha.. it was fun.. basically i got some idea from SNL (saturday night live) reruns at E channel...watching Will Ferrel, Dana Carvey, Chris Farley.. and all of those guys.. man it was truly challenging.. and Ate Rachel really helped me develop the character.. the mannerism, the talk, the walk :p, and the whole package.. I was putting so much effort at developing the role that when I went home Fri night.. I went straight to bed.. then doze off so fast I didn't even get the chance to talk to R... basically I kept repeating to myself what ate rachel told me... that, "I OWN THE STAGE"... that's what truly happened.. it really showed that I was really confident because when I saw myself on the video camera that my dad used.. YES.. my dad was watching.. and no he did not walk out because of disgust like what BAYI was teasing me last saturday.. bwaahaha.. people told me, "parang natural daw" bwahaha.. hay nako im just glad people had a great time watching the play... and i had no regrets in joining this play because it was fun!!!

the other role was tita dina's son, NONOY.. haha.. this was a fun character too.. but it was easier because this was BART.. bwahaha.. makulit na parating nagpapatawa.. :p.. sabi nga nung friend ko.. almost the whole time.. when I was on stage.... hinihintay nalang ako humirit e.. wala lang... i also did what they call here, "the body roll".. sa atin yung ginagawa kong sayaw na pang bold star.. hahaha.. wala lang... anyway, i hope i can put some pictures here so you guys can se...

but as of now, i need to run cuz i am back to the real world.. finals are coming up.. ive got one this coming thursday international business.. one on monday marketing and one on next wed accounting..

magiging actor kaya ako? hmmmm... bwahahah... basta i truly had a wonderful experience.. working with those guys.. miss ko nga sila e.. oh well.. check you guys later... peace!