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So as you can see I fixed my blog. :) i like it better now!!! dont you??? :) :) :)

Anyway, I tried driving yesterday and it wasn't my first time actually it's just that I never drove in the freeway here. It was a bit hard for me because sometimes I forget that there are speed limits but I somehow need to adjust fast because I will have my drive test around next week already. I don't know what to expect so I have to practice a lot. It's wasn't that bad and I arrived in one piece. hehe! Our family really needs me to get my driver's license now that my dad works early in the morning like 5AM!! and somebody has to bring my sisters to school. I guess it will be harder when I get my license already but it's all part of the sacrifices right? Anyway, gotta go!!! I have to get to class...

FIREFLIES
Rabindranath Tagore

I touch God in my song
as the hill touches the far-away sea
with its waterfall.


The butterfly counts not months but moments,
and has time enough.


Let my love, like sunlight, surround you
and yet give you illumined freedom.


Love remains a secret even when spoken,
for only a lover truly knows that he is loved.


Emancipation from the bondage of the soil
is no freedom for the tree.


In love i pay my endless debt to thee
for what thou art.

Only Thee
-Rabindranath Tagore-

That I want thee, only thee---let my heart repeat without end.

All desires that distract me, day and night,

are false and empty to the core.



As the night keeps hidden in its gloom the petition for light,

even thus in the depth of my unconsciousness rings the cry

---`I want thee, only thee'.



As the storm still seeks its end in peace

when it strikes against peace with all its might,

even thus my rebellion strikes against thy love

and still its cry is

---`I want thee, only thee'.

I have done a lot of things this year. I must say that I have grown into a person that I like! What I mean is this is one of the best years of my life. I guess I had it coming cuz I started it with my dream birthday. I can never forget that day. It was like a dream turning into a reality. I used to say that my dream birthday would to conduct a party to people i have never met and somehow make their life more happy. Then it happened when I became 20 years old I took the chance to do it. The best thing about it is I used my hard-earned money to make it sweeter. As I look back at this year of my life, I have experienced a lot of things from almost being shot in the head to moving to another country. These are the experiences I treasure and I truly can't wait for the next years to come.

I'm going to be 21 in a couple of weeks and I just can't help but think about
how life has differed from before.
I guess it just happened one day,

when I just came out of the shell.

Miracles

I must say the first miracle that i have ever experienced was a long time ago that involved I. I guess it was sort of a miracle for me to actually be here right now typing this entry.

I almost died when I was still in my mother's womb. The doctors told my dad that there might come a time in the delivery that he might have to choose to who will live. His wife or his offspring. Before I was being delivered, they found out that my umbilical cord was wrapped around my neck. So they needed to change the normal delivery to a cesarean one. But, God had other plans on mind and He decided to show me my first great miracle.

I never really knew this until I was in my teens. It was just somewhat brought up when I grew up and it just entered my mind the other day. I have been really in the quiet serious mode lately. I can't help but think about me as being a miracle.

Knowing sometimes before how I despised life and always thought that I had no purpose in life.

I think if everybody woke up each day thinking that it was a miracle, then everybody would be living their life to the fullest and feel contented.

My sister was telling me a story about her friend's friend.(well you know what i mean) She told me that the friend killed himself when he was reading the book, "Veronika decides to die" by Paulo Coelho. It will make you shiver because it was kind of disturbing in a way. Especially, when you just read the book. I must say the content was pretty heavy and it was somehow a different kind of book wherein it will question your beliefs. There were some parts of the book where you will just need to stop because it will make you crazy but i got the message and it was very very inspiring. I just don't know what happened to the dude who decided to take his life away. Let's pause for a while and pray for his soul....

Since we are in this topic, I want to share some thoughts of mine of what I want to happen. I know I am in a stage in my life where I have set goals for my personal fulfillment and I might at one time need a miracle. I guess by now if you know me that well, I definitely need one in my love life. I don't know what will happen to us after 5 or 8 years from now. I just wish we could make it and I hope things will fall in the right place in the near future.

There's like a plaza villarosa(for csb) or sj walk(for main) here and you know what? They put a stage and there was this black dj who was playing hiphop songs in the middle of the school with few people actually dancing upstage. It wasn't that bad until they gave out free hotdogs, chips, softdrinks and ice cones! Then it became simply wonderful! (heheh!) they said it was to make students involved with the student body! In my mind I was thinking like whoa!
The only thing wrong about the setting is it was around 11am in the morning and the people were just crowding up in the center of the school just hang out, watch and listen to good music.

Also, almost all the people here smoke cuz it's really cold and I guess one great thing about it is you can smoke on campus and there is no d.o. to bug you around and for girls, no limits as long as you are wearing something. Gosh! imagine that i am still in college how much more if i transfer to a university.

We migrated here to be ready for changes. I guess it just began.

i just got out of my last class for this day and can i just share.... i have this weird and cool teacher for american history 108(that's right i am obliged to learn these stuffs) Anyway as I was saying, it was really weird to see his name to be my teacher. First of all his last name is Wong and when you look at him he looks like this old chinese guy who is like the dad of jet li in romeo must die. (can you picture him already?) It became weirder when he spoke. It turns out he spoke perfect english and to top that he is an attorney! He was so hilarious and very entertaining to listen because of his diction and a whole bunch of badwords that comes out of his mouth. Imagine a teacher saying, "I don't give a damn about your punk ass if you don't do you work and I fail you, id still sleep comfortably at night!". We were like all laughing hard cuz he was discussing about religion and he said he isn't buddhist or a taoist but his religion basely relies on football. He worships the every game he watches and at the same time this dude has an AK-47. He is crazy ass witty professor and I just love the way he teaches... hehhehehe! fun!

I have a bunch of boring professors but this guy tops it all. Next in line is my gay teacher in biology.

I just came from L.A. (again) over the weekend and I haven't blogged in days! so pls bear with me... i have so many things to write especially today which marks my first day in the fall semester... BUT, let me start with L.A., on our first day we went to universal studios and went around. I had more fun in disneyland but two of my most favorite cartoon characters were there so i didn't really care! hehehe! here is one....





Im a real sponge bob fanatic! I simply adore him! He is so cute! and the my other favorite one is shrek! But, I didn't get to take a picture with him because of that freaking long line.... too bad and to think that he was with princess fiona! Darn it! It was okay though...oh wait I also took a picture with some celebs here they are...



I guess I met my idol!

I know bing has the biggest crush on this guy so i took my chance to imitate him... nde pwede.... talo ako! hehehe!


ANYway as i was saying.... i was going to all the shows and met some more famous people. Known for his latest movie "the hulk" here he is...




and sticked to a building is... spiderman...




okay okay.... now you might think "oh my gosh! bart is so shallow all he saw was a bunch cardboard paper mixed with some recycled junk and a picture of some people and characters..." Now I am thinking... these people think that I didn't have a great time or like that but the other day was better! Anyway before anything else... this is weird while riding the tour... i saw street named....


now you see.... you might think right now im totally obsessed with her name or something... to tell you the truth... I AM!

So the next day, we went to THE BEACH! In Malibu! This is of course where they film the "Baywatch" series.... and of course it's great there... the sand was great and I haven't been in a beach for like 3-4 months already and my cousin told me he would teach me to boogie board... hmmm





and I took a picture with a sexy lifeguard hmmm.....


you might think that i look happy beside that sexydropdeadgorgeous blond life guard... but truth is... i am not.. just a thought...


anyway, you might think im crazy for posting a lotta pictures... it just shows that pictures paint a thousand words...or you can also think that i am just lazy to write... you might be right but i don't mind ending this entry byebye!

hehe! this one's a funky post and it's dedicated to my bey! cuz she loves lil mermaid so much!




Part of Your World

What would I give to live where you are?
What would I pay to stay here beside you?
What would I do to see you smiling at me?

Where would we walk?
Where would we run?
If we could stay all day in the sun
Just you and me, and I could be
Part of your world

I don't know when, I don't know how

But I know something's starting right now

Watch and you'll see, someday I'll be....

Part of your world

I just came from san jose, an hour and 20 minutes from here using caltrain. I met up with my tito who brought some stuffs for my sisters and my mom. It's pretty weird when I came home. The news on tv was quite bizzare and not a usual site to see. The topic: New York Blackout. They said that lightning struck the power plant. It was a pretty big deal for Americans here to have no electricity. Back home it was like, "ay walangang kuryente... TAMBAY SA DAAN!" hehe! But here, it's like a catastrophe or something. People actually panic and think that terrorists were attacking. I guess it is pretty normal for them to feel that way after the 9/11 attacks. Anyway, off topic, we are going to L.A. (again) this weekend (WOOHOO!). We are going to universal studios hollywood. My mom's friend gave us a free hotel room and free tickets. Isn't that something? Im out! TC.

The one that got away

Source: The Manila Times

By: Mark J. Macapagal


In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with whom everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose. I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy
romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's
not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact. Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about. You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have
been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if You've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away." You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

Top 20 BLAziNg HiPhOp N R&b MosT SpInS ThIs WeEk
1 Frontin' >Pharrell F/ Jay Z
2 Get Low >Lil Jon & Eastside
3 So Gone >Monica
4 P.I.M.P. >50 Cent
5 Let's Get Down >Bow Wow
6 In Those Jeans >Ginuwine
7 Crazy In Love >Beyonce
8 Can't Stop, Won't Stop >Young Gunz
9 Like Glue >Sean Paul
10 Love @ 1st Sight >Mary J. Blige
11 Signs of Making Love >Tyrese
12 Light Your Ass On Fire >Busta Rhymes
13 Right Thurr >Chingy
14 Say Yes >Floetry
15 Closer >Goapele
16 My Love Is Like Whoa >Mya
17 Rock Wit U >Ashanti
18 Put That Woman First >Jaheim
19 4 Ever >Lil Mo F/ Fabolous
20 Get Busy >Sean Paul

New:
Baby Boy >Beyonce F/ Sean Paul
Steppin Out >Big Gipp
Didn't You Know >Tha Rayne
Where Da Hood At? >DMX

Artist: Fabolous f/ Tamia
Song: "Into You "

[Verse 1: Fabolous]
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you now, I want to be more than a friend of you now
When they ask, I mention my baby girl in the interviews now
And I don't bring the problems from the 90's into 2 Thou'
There's no reason to have a friend or two now
'Cuz the kid's ready to tell you how he feel in a few vow's
Maybe, I speak in general now
But girl imma do whatever just to keep a grin on you now
Where I go, they wear bikini's in the winter too now
What you think about, tan lines on the skin of you now
Why wouldn't I wanna spend a few thou'
On 5th Ave. shopping spree's, and them Dennis De Childs(?)
I ain't concerned what other men would do now
As long as when I slide up in you, you growl
And any dude with you, he better be a king to you now
And I ain't jealous it's the principle now, I'm so into you

[Chorus: Tamia]
I
Really like what you've
Done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I really like what you've
Done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you

[Verse 2: Fabolous]
Come on ma, it's more than a flashin
I woulda traded it all, in orderly fashion
My villa in Florida we crashin
Just off the shore, so you can hear when water be splashin
The drop top 3 and a quarter we dashin
The flawless diamonds and the border we flashin
The money, we oughtta be stashin
I make sure every quarter be cashed in, I can't really explain it
My friend be thinkin I'm slippin
These girls be thinkin I'm trippin
What kinda weed he be smokin
What type of drinks he be sippin
Sweet thing, just to think of you dippin
Would have me with the blue's so hard, you would think I was crippin
Now, you relaxin' in the Benz
Credit cards with no limits, so you don't worry about maxxin' when you spend
Ever since you've been askin' 'bout the friends
How'd you like it if, both our name's had Jackson on the ends, uh

[Chorus]

[Verse 3: Fabolous]
I don't wanna trip, but truth is
Girl the way you cook a steak, reminds me of those strips at ruths cris
You love my smile, no matter how chipped my tooth is
With you, it ain't becuase my whips is roofless
Or sit on chrome dipped dub deuces
And you aint flattered by canary envy ?????
Other ballers look dumb when they press you, 5 and 6's
You don't let them kinda numbers impress you
Even though I was somewhat successfull
Bein a player was becoming too stressfull
But every cent, the superwoman has come to my rescue
My winter's been wonderful, my summer's been special
Let's buy the same bar, while the villa be painted
Just so we can get really aquainted
The love is real, there's no way it could feel like it's tainted
But I can't really explain it, uh, yeah

[Chorus]

On U.S. Politics

One of the hottest topics of conversation here in California is the recall of Gov. Davis and the running of Schwarzenegger as governor of California. (and I thought I have escaped the circus whew!) I was listening to him the other day and fudge! you know what did that guy say? He makes movies for the people and somewhat he said that he lives for the people and he called himself the people's candidate. Damn! that's all bull! I think I have heard that from our wonderful past president ERAP. Politics is a very very boring topic for me. I shouldn't even discuss this topic in my blog it's just that when it comes to things like these and people like Schwarzenegger i think it would be better for him to be an actor and not mess with things like politics. Somehow it affects me as an individual and how I and my family will survive here. It just sucks to think people buy what he says and the mere fact that he is a republican like Bush and connected with him. Ever since Bush stepped up as president all he did was create wars and use the budget alloted for school, housing, livelihood... etc. Now we are having a hard time coping up with what he did because our tuition will increase this fall semester. The hard thing is that we don't have the resident status yet that means we have to pay 5-10x the normal tution is and to think we have to add more money because of the crisis the Bush administration created. I just wish mr. terminator would lose this election if ever Governor Gray Davis will be recalled.

How to lose weight in less than 4 weeks?

intrigued huh? hehehe! well, it's no secret and some people can do this and some people simply can't :)

this picture was taken last month... this is me... then! :)



and now... well because of you guys and some people, it motivated me in becoming this



maybe it's because i played basketball or maybe it's because i don't eat too much carbo after 6pm
or maybe it's because of something else hehe....

can you guess how many pounds i lost? hehe! trivia time... hehehe! hmmmmmm

My family is thinking of relocating to Las Vegas. My dad said it is great and all of that shit. Especially the houses there are way way cheaper than anywhere else. It's just that i think frisco has the highest real estate value in California. If you get to know the prices of the lands and houses here you might think they are sick. One thing about family life here is my age. Here in the states i can live by my own. I am now a dependent in this country and I can live alone. I am sure I will miss them but I don't want to live in Las Vegas, "the city of sin". It's really great but if i had my own family i would never think of relocating there. Legalized prostitutions, slot machines in almost every street, etc. Its really not my kind of living. I think this is the first time I chose to be separated from them. The first time I decided I don't want to live with them anymore that is if they finally decide to live there.

LXXXI - neruda

Already, you are mine. Rest with your dream inside my dream.
Love, grief, labour, must sleep now.
Night revolves on invisible wheels
and joined to me you are pure as sleeping amber.

No one else will sleep with my dream, love.
You will go we will go joined by the waters of time.
No other one will travel the shadows with me,
only you, eternal nature, eternal sun, eternal moon.

Already your hands have opened their delicate fists
and let fall, without direction, their gentle signs,
you eyes enclosing themselves like two grey wings,

while I follow the waters you bring that take me onwards:

night, Earth, winds weave their fate, and already,

not only am I not without you, I alone am your dream.