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im excited as fuck.. one more day to go! yeah baby!!!

Why am I not writing here anymore?

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shoot! what's wrong with me???
i used to write here everyday...
anyhoo, i am now a big fan of kanye west
i think he stands out from all the artists out there
finally a musical artist with soul!!!

i am watching the mtv vma's right now.. i dont like diddy being host...
man he is one fucked up conceited man.. and i guess i will never like the guy..
cuz im one huge tupac fan... and i will always be biased hehe....

I want KANYe's shades!!! and common's get up astig!!! im getting dizzy my eyes hurt... what can I make kwento.. oh yeah I ate sushi.. yes!!! have you tried spam wasubi.. its spam with teriyaki sauce and rice inside nori (sushi) wrapper.. yum man!!! its addictive... im drooling right now.. whooooo..... damn.. oh yeah i watched 4 brothers and 40-year old virgin.. i liked both of the movies.. theyre pretty good!!! we sneaked in the other one hehhe.. kuripot man!!! but it was a good trip to the movies.. i havent watched for so long...

whats up with me? i think this term will be pretty laid back... but i have to really get serious now.. and save some money cuz im going to the philippines soon hehhe... yeeeey!!!! sheeeet my eyes are sleepy.. yawn.. later guyz

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What is heaven for you?

For me, I guess heaven would be me sitting calmly underneath coconut trees
in a beach with her facing the peaceful ocean

as the waves crash in the purest white sand,
while the sun reflects through the crystal blue water
that sparkles and blinds our eyes

from afar, making me wonder,

if heaven is this simple...

then i wish she can see me
the way i do

when i see her

so that she would understand

why at the end of the day
the only thing that can put me to sleep

is imagining her face beside me,
and just dissolving
inside the circle of her arms

that lets me float away quietly
with the calmness of the night
leaving me hoping, thinking and wishing,

for a woman that i can't seem
to get my mind off

as i doze off and leave the world behind...

in a heaven
that can only exist
in dreams..

for now…

=)

i love this dog.. her name is volcom and she is my niece..

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bale dog nung ate ni bayi.. adopted brother nga ako.. kaya uncle bart daw ako eehheheh

*sigh*

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Is it just me?

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Is it just me?

maybe im not cut out anymore to a serious relationship
maybe women can sense this..

Am i that transparent?

maybe because sometimes i am too far away that they think i abandon them
maybe its a question of if i want to play around or being committed to one person

What is happening to me?

maybe i haven't moved on from my last "real" relationship
maybe i see her in these women

Why did I change so much?

maybe I got scared because the last time i loved all the way i fell down badly
and maybe it's better this way.

I don't think she's replaceable
but i do think if we were meant to be together

we will be together..

if not in this life
then in the next.

just some thoughts in my head right now..

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halooo...

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i am temporarily quitting drinking alcohol..

i did some stupid things over the weekend.. and it wasn't good...

first time i didn't know what i was doing.. and it was scary...

oh well.. mga gerls talga o... baket ganon...

nde ko maintindihan kong minsan... kaya napapainom ako ng ngusto...

wow...

wala lang...

darating rin yun...

anyways, im going back to p.i. soon..

im excited.. :p miss you guys...

ingatz