monday

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me and my best hangout guitar buds (macky and marco bernardo)

whos the man? me and chris

chris... doing the tinikling break dance... haha

my singing career is over? haha.. me and *qt bianxxx

mellisa, marcus and somebody grabbing his ass haahhaha..

bart and princess zahrachu (ang taray eh noh..)

*qt mellisa, me and *qt zahra (nagpapacute lang)

watching "the grudge" after showcase..


sorry been busy lately... anyway, here are my pictures... pictures are worth a thousand words dba? heheh... it's either that or tamad lang ako... im out... i got a new poem pero nde pa tapos... watch out weheheheehh... ingatz....

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shoutouts

MILES: oo nga eh... salamat naman mejo masaya na ako... :)... hayun cge enjoy rin the rest of the week..
RUSS: nde daw chink e... korean pala sabi ni mark... my bad... mukha kasing chinita e.. basta ang ganda ganda hay nakowww...
ORANGE: huy putol na ang aking globe line sorry... cge punta ka na dto bilis! heheehe
AIKO: syet pinapublush mo naman ako niyan... bka maniwala ako niyan... tama na... hahahaha
MARK: ey thanks for the info... korean nga sabi ko na nga ba e... hahha... nde nga kaya ng powers ko e... masyadong mushy... :)

saintly weekend

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i feel such a saint for coming home before 12am last night... that's just giving me goose bumps... haha... but then again it gives one saturday night for my dad to sleep well.. haha... i had a sneaky friday... and i won't go into details cuz..

anyhoo, tom gonna be a real blast... hehe...
*/me sings: im so excited and i just can't hide it..
Yeah! I hope a lot of people will come.
*/me flexes (flab) biceps ;p
syet eh... sana i could post pix im gonna bring a camera tom.. woohoo...

ey you guys.. im bored kaya nagpost ako... btw, and i sneaked the computer from my sisters' room and transferred it to my room, HA! so i could get some privacy while typing here... see.. and ill see if i could work on some of my poems too :D ...

ey panurin niyo ito... promise this one is worth it... if you guys are into labidabi kilig short movies... well this one's for you... nabakla din ako sa girl sobrang chick... wow man.. naramdaman ko ang init from my kilikili hehe... labo! kaya lang chinese mtv siya kaya nde mo maintindihan... pero by watching you'll get it pramis! at stop niyo yung my boo... para malinaw :) ihanda niyo ng mga tissues niyo... heavy ito warning lang...

(from d)


wish me luck... guys! im out!

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shout outs
RUSS: syempre she should leave the guy dba... pero that's not always the case.. i think it's hard to say buh-bye kc may emotional investment lalo na napakasensitive nyo no.. kaya it doesn't seem that easy... but i definitely think na it's better to end it instead of making it worse... about the guy number 2, i think what you said is so true... how would you know nga if nararamdaman niya is true 4 you? and how you can you be sure na nde ka lang on the rebound? and can she change? hay nakooo... im just in a wrong situation na it feels so right. It's stupid i think sa huli talo rin ako.
LORNADAHL: syempre... paghuhusayan ko para kay future porn ay este quality films direk pala hehehe... I'll look for that movie nga :)
ARIANE: im still thinking about posting the answered survey here e hahaha...

busy man sobra

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im a busy b these past few days... i feel bad not updating my blog but can't help it... well well... mga friends ano balita? wtsup?

poem
i never looked at my new poem in the point of view of a woman... masmadrama nga cguro yun noh? at least yung mga guys they have the "thicker face" (ehem das me) to tell that they like a woman kahit na may boyfriend... kaya lang pag girls mejo alanganin nga lang noh? it would be really harder if a girl nga would fall for a guy na "taken" wala lang... i agree with all of your messages... wala lang...

aba oo nga noh?
i was talking to a new kabarkada of mine (nax feeling) and i asked him why he did not choose to try his luck in becoming an artist in the Philippines... cuz he's damn amazing with his guitar... para nga siyang radyo e... kaya lang live... hahaa.. laboh! wahahaa... sabi niya sakin he didn't want cuz in order to become successfull there kelangan daw kung marunong kang kumanta, marunong ka ring sumayaw, tapos kelangan marunong karing magbold, tapos umarte... nde daw katulad dito sa america mejo specialized ang mga roles... oh well... natawa ako nung sinabi niya yung mga boldstars ay nagpropromote ng movie by singing kahit na sobrang katakottakot ang boses.. haha.. pero syempre it depends but majority ganun walalng...
(off topic)
talking about singing.. i will sing on monday in front of a live audience mwahaha... wla lang i think i have a passion on publicly humiliating myself.. hahaha.. walang pakelaman tatlo naman kami kakanta e.. right bianca? ;p kaya yan dba? sa skyline college room 2306 Oct25 2:30pm-5:00pm.. we have an FSU showcase.. may mga sasayaw... aarte... there will be kantahan... basta lahat... fun yun.. if you are in the area... it's free... naman because we are promoting PCN (pilipino culture night) next sem... kaya astig... excited nanga ako.. heheh wish me luck... i will sing perfect by true faith with macky and bianx...
(on topic)
anyway, yun nga... tapos sabi pa nya may uncle nga daw siyang producer at sinasabi niya na bakit nde maginvest sa mga quality films to start a change and educate filipino moviegoers.. sabi nung uncle niya mahirap kasi most producers don't invest in quality films because cguradong nde babalik ang kita... they'd rather spend on bomba flicks... oh well, i hope it will change soon..(i need to cut this short no more time). i liked his opinions kaya napa.. aba oo nga noh? ako... hehehe cge im out!

oh w8 here ish my top 5 semi-art films (from diff countries) that I absolutely loved.
1) Amelie
- i loved this... lahat ng mga bagay na nde mo pinapansin na ginagawa mo ipapakita hahaha... hilarious... at sweet... innocent din...
2) Hero
- ang galing ni Jet Li dto at yung "arte" factor halatang makabading ang film.. zhangziyi is hot... hot hot hot hot hot
3) Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon
- ang ganda nung love story... at yung fighting scenes dabomb... at nakakainlove si zhangziyi... hahha...
4) American Family
- nakakaawa yung illegal family dto... basta.. just saw this for class e... ang drama... based on La Llorama "the weeping woman"... cguro nakabase dto ang white lady ng pinas... feeling ko lang...
5) Tinimbang Ka Ngunit Kulang
- ganda ng story... at proud ako na this is a filipino film... sa huli nakattunganga lang ako.. makakarelate ka sa kachismisan ng mga matatanda sa story hahaha... i haven't watched this in a long time... actually i was forced to watched this by my uncle.. then i got hooked up... nakakatawa yung itsura ni christopher deleon dto.. napakatotoy hehhee....

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shoutouts

RUSS and BIANCA: sweeter victory? maybe yes. maybe no. i don't know, that question is really hard because i fell for a woman before who had a boyfriend.. we liked each other though however, that's just it... she made me expect that she will leave the guy because she isn't happy... in the end... she ate all her words... break up then balikan ulit... the cycle of a couple being like that... kakainis... pinabayaan ko nalang siya... kaya i couldn't tell cuz it never happend to me... but i believe if the woman's not happy with how the guy is treating her then she should do something about it... nasa girl naman kasi talga yun e...
MILES: cguro nga may ganun na mga lalake... pero i usually stay away from taken women... masyadong madrama... hahah...
AYA: totoo nga may passion... kaya cguro nakapagsulat ako ng poem para sa kanya... kakaiba talga... pero it's almost the same thing kahit na gf ko siya e... kaya hehehe ewan... basta isa akong senting tao.... that's all i can say...
AIKO: ganun? oo nga eh... feeling ko masmadrama ka pa sa akin... wehehe... miss na kita a wala lang... so teka lang sabi lahat ng "nice men"... so nde pala akong nice... single ako e :p
APO: thanks apo... hehehe... ingatz!
D: wala lang... hehe... yo welcome
BIANCKIE: nde naman... SEMI drama lang po.. heheh
ARIANE: thanksssss!!!
PATTY: *hug* back
CLAIRE: ok aayusin ko yung links ko.. hehe ms angst!
GUILE: there's a little narcisistic person inside of us... sometimes we just don't admit it... hahaha...
ANNA NICOLE: cuz... feel free to read it... wag mo lang ipagkakalat... hanggang sayo nalang... promise? :p

A Simple Wish

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A Simple Wish

Just between you and me
I am just a man with a simple wish.
Don't you see?

She makes the incoherent seems so coherent
Liberating me with a small key
to my entangled chains of depression

Watching her move is like getting stuck in a dream
that goes on and on even if I wake up and open my eyes.
The whole world will be
stunned, astonished, mesmerized
when it uncovers her unblemished beauty.

The silhouette of her fingers, the outline of her back,
and the smooth texture of her skin
are like pieces of a precious painting
hidden in clustered vaults inside the minds of people like me
who are afraid that the world might discover her veiled splendor
and discreetly take her away.

Amid the silence and her sweet smile, music is played over and over.
Somewhere I hear someone is strumming the soft strings of his guitar
and she sings her heart out to me across the silver clouds and shining stars
that dips my soul into an overflowing river.

I have to follow my sleeping heartbeat on a cold night underneath the sands of the desert.

It doesn’t make sense, but it will, you will see.

Just between you and me
I am just a man with a simple wish…

hoping that she was mine.

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(this poem is dedicated to the men who seem to fall for women who are “taken”)
Why is it that it seems like all the nice women are taken? hhehehe… ang drama…if you are reading this.. i just wanna say thank you d. you inspired me to write again. See you in school.

I will add a new segment to my posts.
From now on I will post my top5 songs of my chosen category...
Parang yung sa high fidelity yung kay John Cusack :p astig yung movie na yun..

MY top 5 break up (ouch nasaktan ako dun) R&B songs
1) How could you - 112
2) The one I gave my heart to - Aaliyah
3) Missing you (extended version) - Case
4) One last cry - Brian Mcknight
5) I don't ever wanna see you again - Uncle Sam and BoyzIIMen

credits:
picture from ebay.com
painting by Claude Monet

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shoutouts:
ANNA NICOLE: ang ganda naman nung pics.. kakamiss tuloy kayo :) anong nde ka nagbabasa ng blogs totoo ba yan?
MILES: oo nga e.. kaya lang sobrang busy naman heheh
RAIN: gagawin ko yan sec part2... pramis... ill visit your blog nga sige
MINA: cge just enjoy my walang kwentang posts... feel free to read lang hehe
CLAIRE: yeah ill read your msg.. sorry been so busy lately...
ARIANE: thank you :)
LORNADAHL: Hello Din! :)
AIKO: wala sec parin the best!
KAYE: cge ill link you up...

wala lang

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I sent ds msg last night to a friend of mine...

i rly hd a gr8 wachucalit wid u hehe. d lumpia, d tigidig of ur shoes n d beach, d carots, da jamba juice wd ur huge ass walet :), d starbucks hangout, d perfect day wd d wrng clothes :p, d drama, pain, agony n joy of our lives... nax senti na man.. gdnyt swit dreams. tke it easy f u nid anythin jst holla! Thnks

jst when i thought i lost, this thing happened.. wala lang... let's just say we both had a wonderful time hanging around... minsan lang ako maganito.. sulitin ko na.. i just love spur of the moment things... yung walang plano... what a joy... exciting... o cge... hav to go... i had a low score on my history test.. i have to go...

magaya nga si patty!

id like to say hi to

RUSS: yeah true i agree haha... this blog's gonna be here.. for my love problems at kadramahan sa buhay :) thanks...
MARI: syempre 4ever mascot ito ng sec noh :p lvyah2
APO: haaay ang katangitanging bible ng sec nasa iyo.. alagaan mo yan ah hahahaha..
RAIN: walang makakapalit sa batch natin.. best SEC ever!
MILES: oo nga e.. went to three bbq parties over the weekend... then had to wrap lumpia at 10am-6pm.. hahaha.. wala lang... thanks for the advices heheh..

im out!

my new org

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I should stop turning this blog into a ridiculous love blog... doncha think weheheh... damn love! (whops jk.. baka magalit e!)

ANyHoo, i gotta new org FILIPiNo StuDeNt UniOn (FSU) its a pilot club that started just this fall 04... by the way im an officer (co-commissioner of activities)... mwahahaha... wala lang...

we just finished placing the exhibit, and we are going to have a lumpia making bbq party on saturday... yummy.. can't wait.. we are going to make lumpia cuz we will have a lumpia sale on monday oct 11 and tues oct 12. So if you are near the area buy from us in between bldg 5 and bldg 8 ata ... It's a fund raiser for an event at Skyline College this wednesday.. I think a director is coming who made a documentary about little manila in stockton ca. I am really excited about this major project that's on the works (sana nde masulot)... if God-willing and plans push through, we are going to publish a book and some institution will give us $5k grant. Cool! It's a collection of filipinos and filipino american write ups... poems, essays, photos, stories, watever... even if you are not filipino as long as you write about is in the same context and topic about flips... it's good.. sana we can pull this through... we also have this PCN thing kaso sa spring payun e... so tutulong pa rin ako kahit na lumipat na ako... PCN is pilipino cultural night... showcasing talents in the bay area or (other info coming up next posts)... this is a huge project for our org.. I think we can do it cuz our president is really passionate about achieving so many things... wala lang im proud of you nikki! close kami kasi binigyan ako ng yosi (kaya nakilala ko 2 at nahook up ako sa fsu e!) hahaha... What else.. oh im also raving about the HAWAII trip in 2005 if everything goes well.. our prize is this convention in hawaii all expenses paid... hehe... that's my org... 3 weeks palang ata akong member... im so into it na... weird!

to all the SEC peepz, hwag kayo magselos, sec parin ito 4 life! Hayun nga so that's what I am really busy about these days...

ang bilis ng panahon, time flies so fast... wala akong masulat pasensya nalang! I got nga pala my acceptance letter sa SfSu... Cool. at least I have a school na this spring 2005.

Ano pa ah oo i have to get to class..

im out! :)

Cleaning out my life

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I've been going through a lot lately, and the instances that just happened are one of those censored, private parts of my life. Nyay! All I know is I am quite happy now. Jealousy and hunger seems synonymous to me (if you knw me vry well im a monster when I am hungry hahah). Whew! Im glad it's just done. Lemme explain y im jealous... what will you feel if the woman you loved is in love with someone else already? to make it worse... you are part of her past... and you love her oh so much... and you still do...

I just didn't know how to react when she actually said she was in love with someone else. I popped hahaha!!! I guess why I am happy is that I figured out that it's time to grow up. What's done is done. I am going to look at this and just laugh about it... I will.. soon.

I know a quote that goes kinda like this way,
"If thing's don't go your way, a better one's coming along".

Parang ganun... parang feeling ko i have been enlightened lately hahaha... para akong siraulo... anyhoo, i got nothing to lose.

im out.

ayoko na

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pose/feeling of the moment: nakatungaga sa puting dingding ng kwarto ng mga kapatid ko (andun kc yung computer e!)...nakatanga.... nagmumukmuk... naiinggit... naiinis... stress... nasesenti... sana andun ako... what if?... what if?... nakikinig sa when you know (soundtrack sa serenditpity)... ang hirap... sana ganun lang kadali... bakit ganun? .... kelan ba matatapos ito?.... ayoko na sabi ng bibig ko kaya lang nde ganun e... ang labo .. ang gulo ... i give up. i have to. if not 2day... tomorrow... i have to i just have to.. its killing me... i have to end this. ayoko na.. ayoko na talga...